Send me, I’ll go. Let me go, let me go.
I think of the song Send Me by Lecrae every time I think of those words. It’s a song I often listened to on trips with my youth group and one that still comes to mind often, although I don’t listen to it much anymore. I believe that God has been working the call to missions in me for years before I had even realized it was a desire I had and this is one of the ways he has spoken to me.
My parents were missionaries in Mexico until I was almost eight years old and after quite a few years, “we” are back in ministry as my dad works at a Christian camp. My mom, brother, and I work here when help is needed/ in the summer(mostly). I’ve also been on a few mission trips with my youth group. These experiences have opened my eyes more to His kingdom and prepared my heart to serve Him in missions for a longer amount of time.
Through all of my worries and doubts about my future, my God had a plan. And that plan is so good. When he said “wait” or “focus on the step in front of you”, I sometimes found it hard, but here I am in the middle of His goodness. I have been accepted to join a great group of people to go to Thailand, Malawi, and Guatemala in nine months. We will spend three months in each country and the work we do will vary depending on the needs of the ministry that my team is assigned to help.
Isn’t it so great that I focused on my next step? Now, it hasn’t always been so easy. A few months ago, if I would have talked to my parents about doing this, they would have insisted that a college education is necessary first. I couldn’t have been able to do this without their full support and since God knew what He was doing, He spoke to them Himself. After a message on a Sunday morning at church about going “all in”, they pulled me aside to talk to me. They started to tear up as they explained that they felt that they were supposed to “release” me to follow the Lord’s leading- wherever that may be. That’s where this whole adventure was able to get its start.
Thank you Lord, for speaking to us.
We may think we know what’s best, but our trust in Him is so much more important. He has so much for us if we would just let go of what we think is the right thing to do. All logical reasoning would have put me in college before this time, next year. All logical reasoning would have said I can’t raise this amount of money. All logical reasoning would have said I can’t spend nine months away from people I love- my family and friends.
But my God is not a logical God. That is not how He works. He works in ways I can’t understand and He gives me hope where most people wouldn’t find any. I trust Him with my life and with this beautiful next step that He has given me. I am beyond excited, but also incredibly nervous. Just because I am committing to follow Him in this way doesn’t mean it doesn’t come without some struggle. The devil will try to bring me down, but I just ask that you will join me in this crazy journey by praying for me and for the people that I encounter and that all this can point to Him and give Him all the glory!
Thank you so much for your support, dear friends! I love you all soooo much!
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