This month has been crazy.
Crazy Awesome.
Crazy Emotional.
Crazy Hard.
Just Crazy.
Our ministry this month was just amazing. Our ministry contacts are two of the coolest people I've ever met and they are such an example of what God has called us all to do and how to do life. Erika and Louis are probably my favorite ministry contacts so far on the Race and I'm so thankful we had the chance to work with them and Beam Africa. Those kids and that ministry are so unbelievably special and they will always have a special place in my heart. If it were possible, I would have about 5 South African children with me now and keep them forever.
If you've been reading my blogs at all, you probably know that this month has been like an emotional roller coaster for me. For the first time, I'm learning to confront things, deal with conflict, verbally communicate my feelings, and learning how to be an adult in a lot of ways. I'm learning that there are real consequences to my actions and reactions, not just figurative ones that people talk about but never happen. I'm learning that ignoring problems magnifies them, not makes them go away. I'm learning that people can't read my mind and it's not fair for me to expect that from them. I'm learning that sometimes a minor panic attack is just the kick in the pants that I need to actually deal with things.
The Lord has taught be so much this month about who I am, who I'm becoming, who He has called me to be, and who I want to be as well as what I want out of life. I wouldn't have changed anything about this month even though it wasn't always easy, but I'm so thankful for my teammates, my contacts, and the kids from Beam.
