So like most people I am a person
that certain things go to my mind but don’t hit my heart until I experience it. This afternoon after I finished my
eight-hour shift at Chick-fil-A, I decided I needed some God and me time. I am also one of those people that
has so much going on that I have to get myself away from everything distracting
to find the intimacy with the Lord that I know I need. So I
decided to take my dog on a walk,
put some worship music on and got out in 100 degree Texas heat.
As I was walking I didn’t feel like
praying, I didn’t feel like praising his name, I didn’t feel like giving any
effort. I just wanted to
walk. So that need for the God
time was much more of a desire then what I felt in my heart. So I just walked, looking at around and
sweating in this dreaded heat and just thinking about my week. How I have worked, got some WR stuff
done and went to youth last night was pretty much what my week looked like so
far. Then I remembered I was a
little upset after leaving youth last night because I sat behind some youth
that goofed off during the worship. I wanted to ask them why they were acting like this
during worship, while they have been given time to sing praises to His name. And it hit me. Right now I didn’t 
want to worship,
when I was given the time to worship.
So as continued to walk and I began
to hear these words…. This is what I was made
to do, to worship you….you are more real then what my eyes can see….I just want to touch your heart….I don’t care what it takes…I got to trust your heart father…this generation
has to see, the love of my Father…no one has ever loved me…no one has ever fallen
for me…the way you do….you break
through my darkness…you love me…
And before I noticed tears were
streaming down my face. So many
times in these transition times
in my life I find myself giving every excuse,
getting upset or wanting to cover it up and say everything is ok. But reality tells me different. How are people supposed to know their
lives are worship unless my life is worship. How are people suppose to know to trust the father’s heart,
if I don’t show that I trust the father’s heart. How is this generation suppose to see the Father’s love
unless they see the Father’s love through me. How are people suppose to know that the Father never stops
loving them if I never show them that I never stop loving them.
And this revelation that I clearly
have pushed aside as I live my life day to day gets me more excited for this
next step in my life. As I get to
lead the October 2010 World Race Squad. Knowing how much the Father loves me and I get to show that to this
world and to 64 racers walking beside me.
If you feel led to support me. Here is what I need. I need around $8,000 to cover my costs while out on the
field. This money will cover 4
months while I am with my Squad on the field, and also allow me visit them
twice throughout their Race. If
you are interested in partnering with me financially, just click the “Click
here support me” link of the left.
Thank you for your prayers and
support!
