My hands tremble as I write these words that are jumbled in
my head. Will my readers even understand
the meaning that I am trying to share? Will
these words offend those I love or hurt those I care so much about. But does it
really matter?
What I do know is that “I am a daughter of the King”
My world has been turned upside down since the beginning of
October. I honestly felt that I was
pushing as hard as I could but I was only making it worse. Hiding things that I thought would just take
the pain away but it just made it worse.
I didn’t understand why I was struggling with things the
Lord was asking of me. I was worrying to
much about offending those who have taught me then allowing the Lord to be in
charge.
I felt like I was making progress with what the Lord was teaching
me right before we headed into mainland China. As the two weeks on I could see myself sitting
in that shame and sin again.
I was fighting my flesh because I did not understand what I was
missing. Over debrief the Lord really challenged
me to know my identity in him and let him lay the foundation.
He has put on my heart these words…
“To see myself as the Lord sees me. To know that I am a daughter
of the King. To know who Christ is in me.”
TO REST IN HIM
I wish I could say that this has all been fun in games. But I know that I am enjoying seeing a new way
the Lord loves me everyday.
