The past five days I’ve been in limbo. Let me explain. After finishing the first month on the race in Serbia, I didn’t go straight to my second month in Romania. The whole I Squad had a five day long debrief. In this space of limbo I Squad processed the past month. We met with leaders, explored the capital of Serbia, and got some much needed rest. A lot of my time spent in limbo was spent seeking God for direction in the up coming month.
Every time I prayed about direction for Romania I got the same verse Proverbs 3:6. This verse talks about how if you seek Him first He will show you the path. But being human this wasn’t enough for me I wanted a specific direction; I wanted to know the whole path. My squad mentor Erika, reminded me that God is a lamp unto my feet. He lights up the next step, not the next 20. I still wanted a clear, clean, path for Romania.
The last day of limbo (debrief), I was still seeking God’s direction. Our last worship session, our last teaching session, our last group pray, and still no word. I’m sitting there in silently waiting for Him to speak, begging Him to say something more. It seemed like forever, I sat there. The session was about to end and I was about to give up, but don’t you know our God is faithful. I opened my eyes and was packing away my stuff, when I looked over at a woman on the squad named Gracie. On her foot was a tattoo of mountain peaks. God spoke to me. He told me to stop worrying about the end and about the path. He seemed to say, “I am God and I stand on top of the mountains, you are my daughter, Gracie, and everyone in here are my sons and daughters. You all stand on top of the mountain with me. “ I was at peace leaving the last session, because I knew that at the end of the day, God has already won the war, He’s already on the mountaintop. The path and the direction don’t matter as much when you know what’s waiting for you at the end.
Please pray for me and others on my team who are still fundraising. My next deadline of $13,000 is due the 30th of September. Please consider giving.
