I dont even know where to begin. It’s currently 12:30 am and our bus leaves for Malaysia in 2 1/2 hours… I still can’t believe that my time here in Thailand has come to an end. I kept telling myself I would blog to update everyone on ministry and how my second month was going but next thing I knew it was our last day and we were saying goodbyes.
I have so much that I want to share but for now I’m gonna try and keep this post nice and short so I’ll start with a fact about myself: I hate change & I don’t function well when I have to deal with a lot of it.
With that being said, you might ask, “why on earth would you sign up for the world race where you literally live 9 months in a state of constant change?” my answer: “I have absolutely no idea and I am convinced God made me do it.”
This past month has been so busy and I’ll be quite honest in saying that I’ve had a very hard time with the thought of leaving Thailand. I’ve been learning to choose joy and peace, even in the midst of feeling overwhelmed and stressed. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying its easy and I’m definitely not saying I’m good at it. I still find myself getting caught up in thinking about the future and what’s next. I’m just saying that I’m learning to live fully in the present and make the most out of every day. I am learning to press into the Father and to find my joy in Him throughout every situation.
Some days are hard. I wake up in a grumpy mood, completely exhausted and I just want to be alone, that word in itself is already so foreign to me. I am never alone… ever. The closest thing I get to being alone is hanging a sheet from my bunk bed and putting my headphones in so then I can pretend like I don’t have 5 other people sleeping in the same room, its tough. Sometimes every person on my team is hangry and we all want to kill one another.. but you know, I kind of love them. I kind of love living this chapter of my life with them.
Speaking of chapters, as we move into this next month, my team (6 other girls) and I will be splitting up from the rest of the squad. For the past two months our entire squad, of about 35 people, has been living together and we’re about to be on our own. We don’t know a lot about where we’re going or what we will be doing but we’ve been told that we’ll be sleeping on the floor of a church in Changlun, Malaysia. Woohoo. Although we are in the midst of a lot of change, I’m excited to see what this next month holds for my team and I and I look forward to updating you all on things within the next few weeks.
