Hey people!
I am HOME, well in Texas, but that’s close enough. You might be wondering why I’m back a few weeks early, or maybe you wouldn’t have even noticed unless I told you. But either way, I’m gonna be very vulnerable in this post and explain why I’m back just a month before I was actually supposed to come home.
It’s been about a week since I have been back in the states and I‘ve been wanting to write this but just kept putting it off. Maybe I was putting it off due to pride, or maybe I have been afraid of what people will think of me, but after lots of prayer I feel that I owe it to you all to just be honest.
Before my trip even began, we signed this contract agreeing to guidelines and rules of the World Race. One of those rules was no drinking. Unfortunately I made a careless decision to break that rule and I am now facing the consequences of my actions. I guess that maybe in the moment, I thought it was okay. I thought, well if I don’t get caught then I’ll be fine. One morning I got pulled in to have a talk with my leaders and next thing I knew, I was waiting in the airport for my flight home. I really can’t express how I felt in that moment. I was in shock, and I felt ashamed for what I had done. I couldn’t believe that I chose to do something so ignorant, knowing the consequences I could face.
After having time to reflect and think about the whole situation, I can say that I am truly so sorry. I’m sorry that after 8 months, I let people down. I’m sorry that I made this mistake and I am sorry to all the people I hurt with my actions.
I do really appreciate everyone that has supported me on my trip. I am so thankful for all the amazing opportunities I have had to serve in different places. I have learned so much since I’ve been gone. Even this is a learning experience for me, I know that I made a poor choice but I am still excited for the ways God will continue to use me. I would like to be very transparent with this situation, so if you have any questions or there’s anything you would like to know feel free to ask.
Also, I’m gonna try to post a blog next week (with pictures) to recap my whole trip.
love, abs
