When I first started raising support and heard that I had a $5,000 deadline coming up quickly my response was less then spiritual… it was a lot more like panic. Hence when the Lord compared what He is teaching me to what He was teaching Israel before He parted the Red Sea my response was, “Yes, Lord, they freaked out!”. But then I decided to read the passage and this is what I found.
Exodus 14:13-14 “Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. 14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
Then I realized what the Lord was actually saying. Israel was faced one last time with what had intimidated them and owned them since before they could remember and God was saying I want to deliver you from them for good. I have dealt with the fears of “what if God doesn’t provide” and “what if I get everything wrong and mess it all up”. God wants to put and end to those lies and fears for good by demonstrating His goodness and sufficiency. God intentionally gave me less time then I want so that He can give me what I need.
And this week I had a friend commit to donating a large amount towards my trip. That has given me hope that God really is going to provide and that I can put my faith and trust in Him instead of putting it in my capacity to try harder.
P.S. Please still pray for my deadline on the 25th as I am not quite a fully spiritual person just yet.
