Is God incompetent? I hesitate to use that as the title of my blog post because it sounds really bad and rather irreverent to say that. We know the answer is no of course God is not incompetent, but in my own life I am discovering that, in many ways, I am living life like I believe He is.
So many times I worry or stress because my plan fell through or what I was hoping for went up in smoke. If God is competent at being God, then why do I freak out so much? My doctrine is always so nice and nailed down until I have to actually risk something in believing it.
Psalm 139:16-18
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
I started thinking about this while staying with my cousin in Florida right after training camp (around the time of my last blog post). In conversation with my cousin I said that I want to start living my life like I believe that God has a plan. Because if God always has a plan then I can truly be anxious for nothing just like the Bible says.
Of late God has been allowing me the opportunity to… apply the lessons that I say I would like to start implementing in my life and within 24 hours of this conversation I had just that. I blew a hole in the back of my car’s motor on my way home and basically totaled my car more then 800 miles from home! Now had I not had that conversation the day before it would be needless to say that this would have been considered a bit of a damper on my travel plans. But, in light of the conversation (and many prayers going up from friends and family), I had a level of peace and even joy that I could not explain independent of the fact that I knew God had a plan. Worrying and fretting would not have patched the whole in my car and, as I told one of the mechanics, I’m to young to go bald from pulling my hair out. So I chose to be joyful in it and because of that, all things considered, I had a fairly enjoyable adventure with the Lord.
Now I did have a couple of moments where I still felt stressed, but I was coming to the realization that this is what ministry is. Stuff happens and you decide who are you going to trust, you or God. I may not know what God’s plans look like, but I am going to risk the adventure of finding out. How about you?
Today I was wrestling with another scenario. Do I believe that God has a plan to raise another twelve to thirteen thousand dollars in time or not? There is no rental car that I can get for this one. I know that learning this lesson is probably almost as important as the trip itself, but this one is a little harder to just walk in God’s peace and joy knowing that He has got me covered. I greatly appreciate your prayers and comments. I love you all, thanks!
