Don’t put the cart before the horse or maybe don’t count your chickens before they hatch. How cheesy could it get? Funny how these things apply to me.
It’s easy to jump ahead when Father reveals some kind of unique revelation specific to you. You start scheming and planning. You put in order the logical steps to get from point A to point B. This is not in itself a bad thing, however, it’s important to know that we are not the one who connects the dots. Let me explain.
It has been a process. I’m constantly called to abandon things and become broken and dependent. I receive bits and pieces here and there of who I am and what he has called me to do. I receive the calling he puts on my heart with openness but here’s where it becomes difficult.
I like to make things happen. It is hard for me to wait patiently when I feel so strongly about a purpose. When you receive a word from the Lord, it is so easy to jump into it and put yourself out there. But as I said before, it is a process. Imagine a line going from Point A to Point B with several points between. I find myself starting at Point B without allowing God to mold me and shape me through the various points along the way. I get so caught up in the doing and lose track of how to BE. I want to “arrive” at the end. But it is dangerous when we look to fulfill the Great Commission before understanding the Great Commandment. How can I go into nations bringing change when I don’t understand the love relationship between me and my Heavenly Father? How I can father an orphan when I myself am living like an orphan without an understanding of real love? EVERYTHING flows from that. Let me say that again, EVERYTHING flows from that relationship. I must recognize that I am a part of His family, and not just believe it as doctrine, but feel it in my core. I want to know what his heart feels for me.
I do not want to have an orphan heart anymore. I don’t want to feel insecure, get caught up in the doing, and try to claim my inheritance before I am ready to receive it. All in good time. As a son in this Kingdom, I already have the inheritance coming to me. Whether it’s a calling, the fruit of ministry, nations, it’s coming.
Oh Father, that I may embrace you as a son! That I will walk in your steps and be about your business all in YOUR time, not mine. You are magnificent and your ways are above all others. No enemy could thwart your plans or purposes. Thank you for loving me and adopting me as your son!
