~ Zeb’s birthday. We went to the orphanage and I immediately went
outside towards the hill to start moving it. It’s a LOT of dirt. I just
really needed to let off some aggression and steam, and physical labor
does that for me, unless I have a basketball and a court to play
on…ironically that is why the hill is being moved. I was still really
struggling and then Kevin, the 9 year old at the orphanage, came out
with a card for me that thanked me for my time and I pretty much lost
myself to tears right there. Manuel (the four year old) came outside and
before I could stop him, grabbed the shovel 5 times his size and
started filling up the wheel barrow…no where near how full I fill it,
but he then took that amount to dump it and came back for more…I stood
in awe and amazement. Kevin came and helped too.
The
others came out or well 4 of them and we did some serious damage to
that hill, before going in to eat some surprise birthday cake we made
for Zeb!! Then, I started watching Spider-Man 2 with Manuel (totally
watched it like Alijah with his mouth open and in awe of it) and when
the kids went for their nap, I continued to watch it and God totally
showed up. The part where Aunt May is packing her things and talks to
Peter of how so many people need Spider-Man, need that hero to look up
to, to know that someone is willing to sacrifice all of their dreams for
the well-being and safety of others. A total thought towards Christ,
now that I think about it…but it just totally caused me to start
crying, so I had to go back out and work harder to relieve that stress.
feedback, I broke down just overwhelmed by everything and I couldn’t
contain it in anymore, even though we were in McDonald’s after no one
showed up for our soccer game that afternoon…it felt so great to let
that turmoil out and my team then prayed over me.
That
night we went out to dinner for Zeb’s birthday and it was amazing!! The
team even surprised me by having a second dessert nachoes for me as
well and sang ‘Happy Birthday’ to both of us…threw me off.
~ our day off from ministry (though to be honest we work for God and
don’t get time off) and we went to Oakland Mall as a team on our own
money and even though I felt like I shouldn’t go I went. I started
getting bombarded with the fact that it was too much, we didn’t need to
be there, didn’t need to spend the money we did (I didn’t spend any
except for the movie and lunch), but still was tough. I got hit sooo
hard just looking around and seeing basically ‘America’ in this place
and it didn’t help to when I read the first two chapters of ‘Radical’ by
David Platt. I felt we were too clinging on our rights as American to
need a taste of home already and it sickened me.
went and saw ‘Eat, Pray, Love’ in the V.I.P. theater, which is amazing
and has Laz-Boy chairs for seating…totally awesome and God showed up
again and I realized why I had needed to go. I needed to go to watch
that movie and to feel the things that I did. It’s a secular movie but
had soo many nuggets of truth and gold in it that I was longing
desperately for pen and paper. One part has Julia Robert’s character
being told about transformations and how we go through them all the time
and need to be ready and open to them and I was just thinking wow…so
true and especially for me on this Race. Ridiculous! Then the final long
speech was about a quest and though it wasn’t specifically towards God,
it made my blog name ‘Quest for Him’ seem sooo much more appropriate
and I know even more that that is exactly what I’m doing…questing for
the King and in so doing questing for my own heart! Wow!
this, we headed home but I still couldn’t shake the feelings I was
feeling and covered my eyes in the car as everyone talked about the
movie and wept. I felt ashamed and dirty. I came up to our area and just
sat here with tears in my eyes…Ginger then asked how I was and I
broke down and told her everything I had felt that day. It was sooo
relieving, yet hard and frustrating. She prayed for me and I felt peace
undeniable flood over me. God also used her to just help me realize that
we were not in the wrong and that that is where we needed to be that
day, regardless of how I felt, because His plans are far superior to
mine and I must remember that. Craziness either way!!
Alright,
almost done. Almost finished here. A few more tidbits. The other night
we found out our next location. We will be going to Honduras where Allan
and Mary’s teams are right now with Team Crash of Love and will
continue in their footsteps from Nov. 3rd to the 26th or 29th and then
heading to wherever our debriefing as a squad will be. His plans are
better than ours! In light of this, we will not have readily accessible
internet, but for limited time and so will only be able to post blogs,
which I think most of us on Team Lionheart is ready for so we can spend
more time together and with the ministry.
Love you all! Miss everyone! Oh and I’m am now fully funded!! GO GOD!!
In
light of this, I am severly lacking in the whole emergency money funds
that I may need, so if you would like to give towards that, then you can
e-mail me at [email protected] and I’ll give you my address in Florida to send it to my parents.
OR…help out my boy Phil K. at philkhamoua.theworldrace.org/ He needs a LOT more funds to be able to stay out here on the Race…please consider this avenue as well! Love ya!
