Batman Revealed
This story really begins back in Granada, Nicaragua at our first debrief. I walked around that city and saw a symbol for Batman, the Caped Crusader. It puzzled me, being so random and the fact that my spirit was also twinged that something else, some other meaning could be found. I, however, wasn't able to figure it out.
In every country since that time, I have seen Batman or his symbol. It has perplexed me for many long hours with no idea of how to decipher this enigma before me. I felt like the Riddler (a Batman nemesis) had gotten the best of me.
Then, last week, as I laid on my bed waiting for Scotty (our squad leader) to get done in the restroom, I saw the final piece. As I laid on my back, I closed my eyes and God gave me a vision of Batman that then switched to Batman removing his mask.
My immediate thought: "God does this mean I'm to cut my hair and shave my beard."
I saw Batman shake his head no. (Secretly: Phewww…)
I was at a loss though, so I went into prayer about the whole situation. Then, the following night's feedback session gave me some revelation. Annalisa revealed that she didn't feel we were being vulnerable with one another (in effect she was being vulnerable in her own struggles) and in that our team wasn't as close as it should be. These statements brought about me sharing on seeing Batman and that individually I need to take the mask off from my heart with God, but also with them, as well as that we were needing to unmask ourselves with each other, as a whole. I cannot remember my exact words, but how I said it correlated with vulnerability.
So, to go deeper into this, as I've thought how I could write these words, God gave me more revelation in the stormy hours we spent in the jungle. This is what I wrote:
I've shielded my heart from God with a mask, confined parts of who I am thinking I could hide behind an alter ego. He has told me, it is time to take off the mask, to no longer try and hide for He knows all things anyways. In the same way, He has said I MUST take off the mask, in order to take off my blinders and see His Kingdom and power with a new light and truth; to see His true love, His loyal love, indeed His teleia agape (perfect love).
WOW! I've thought long and hard over all of these revelations and prayed constantly. To be honest, I'm not sure how I masked my heart from Him at all, but I feel and believe it has something to do with masking my heart and parts of me from those He has placed in my life, aka…my team, and the fact that I use my 'go to' responses of 'good' and 'I don't know,' in order to not answer the difficult questions. As I've typed this, He has also shown me that it is not just that I have masked parts of myself to Him (indeed not possible) and to others, but that I have masked and shielded parts of who I am from myself. I have masked my own heart from knowing and believing who I am and the power and strength that I have in Him. My goodness…
Anyways, now is the time for my mask to come off…
[peels mask off my heart]…
My name is Andrew Justin 'Davek-Christ' Wagoner, AKA A.J. and I Am a Mighty Man of God, His Child, His Son. I have power and worth. Nothing the enemy throws at me can touch me for I Am protected by the Great I AM and His legions of angels. My voice is powerful. My very presence can change the atmosphere of any room or situation. I have wisdom and I Am bold and courageous to speak up when I need to. I am strong. Resurrection power flows through my veins and I have the faith to believe that God hears me and listens to me when I pray. I Am a FREE heart that is fully unmasked to God and my brethren. I Am an encourager, a prayer and worship warrior, a faithful servant, and one who cleaves to Him with a VIOLENT passion!! I Am HIS!!! These words so I declare and STEP INTO!! No MORE may I shrink back from whence He has called me! JEEEESSSSUUUUUUSSSSSS!!!!! (that's my battlecry!)
*Please stay tuned for what has happened now that the mask is gone! 😀
Also, I pray that you too will be able to remove your mask from YOUR heart and allow God to work in your life and reveal to you who YOU are! It's a beautiful thing!
