“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters, wherever you have called me.” That’s such a good song and so much fun to sing. It’s something we say and swear that we mean, but have you ever thought about what it looks like? It looks so different for everyone, I can guarantee you if you’re uncomfortable then you’re growing. I am learning that there is so much beauty in the uncomfortable.
For example, living in community, sucks. When I am at home I don’t want to consider other people’s feelings, it’s about me and how I need to unwind my day. Instead I am learning how to consider other people above myself, serve and love them. It could even be as small as taking out a couple minutes of your morning to make the coffee. Also, taking initiative, because even though you feel like you’re the only person who sweeps or takes the trash out, you’re growing. You have to look at every situation, every single little thing and think, “okay if I don’t take care of this, then who will?” Most of the time the answer to that is no one or you are putting more on the one person who will do everything and stressing them out. All that to say, i’m uncomfortable learning what it looks like to serve all the time and choose into 16 people who were strangers a month ago.
Last night we got to debrief and had some free time this morning. I planned on coming to the roof to watch netflix, but somehow I instead watched my home church’s digital campus. I got to worship and feel a little bit more at home this morning. The best part was I was doing it overlooking the mountains and ocean. Worship has been a love language of mine here. Everyone is gifted in so many different things, they all hear the Lord in different ways. I have learned that God speaks to us in the way he made us. As I wrestle with what song to write about that he has spoken to me through, I realize mines worship. No, I cannot sing which is why God is so funny. One of my favorite songs this month has been “Another in the Fire“ by Hillsong. I could just write out the whole song because every lyric resonates with me so much. However, since I am on the beach and have spent a lot of time looking at how vast and big the ocean is I love when the song says “there is another in the waters holding back the seas.” I love that I can see no matter how deep the ocean is or how big the waves are, My god will hold back the sea and let me walk through it.
They didn’t sing spirit lead me today, but as I was looking out I felt that song over me. I felt thankful that im here, thankful im uncomfortable, and thankful I am outside of my borders. I will be a witness to say, it is so beautiful to follow the holy spirit and trust him wherever he leads you, even if it is to a city in Costa Rica with 16 strangers.
