Hey y’all!!
SURPRISE!!!
I’m going on an 11 month mission trip, traveling to 11 different countries!!
I know when you hear about this new adventure your question will be “WHY?!” “what about your sister and mom?,” “what about your job?,” “what about going back to school?,” “what about your online business” I’ve asked myself these same questions! I overthink things, I’m working on it haha
It’s a super simple answer, but there’s so much that went into it! Simply put: It’s the next step in my journey! To trusting God, trusting myself, trusting that everything will be okay even when I’m not in control! And I like control…
If you know my story, or when you hear my story, you’ll see that I’ve been through a lot!! And specifically the last few years. Rewind a few years ago.. I went through illness and pain myself, but I’ve also seen family deal with health issues. August of 2018 my Dad died at home and I did CPR. Then over the next 8 months several more people, extended family and family friend, would also die. May 8, 2018 my Grandpa died, totally unexpected, was otherwise healthy up until his hospital visit. Stage 4 brain cancer, inoperable.. nothing we could do even in a completely healthy, younger person.
Y’all, when I say I was a WRECK that’s an understatement! I lost who I was. Confused. Angry. Confused again. Angry again. Those were the only two emotions I seemed to know. For 3 months!! I spent all summer angry at everything and God and confused as to how this could happen! I had hit an all time low.
Middle of August 2019 I decided that enough was enough! I knew that my God is good! And I knew that He loves me and all the truths the Bible tells you. I knew all the things, but I was still so hurt and so broken! So, I decided that I needed to sit down with my Bible and figure out what I believe about what I had been through and rebuild a relationship with my Heavenly Father.
I’ve always been that person that says they trust God, but then they live life on their own. On their own strength. On their terms. In their comfort zone! That is NOT what God calls us to do. I’ve heard pastors ask “Are you lukewarm in your faith?” I no longer want to be lukewarm! So when I dug back into my Bible and really decided to go all in with God and a relationship with Him.. I told myself I wasn’t going to do it half way! I was going be fully in! That meant trusting Him with my family, my journey, my schedule. My everything!! I was going to let go of all of that and let God handle it all!
I have worked really hard to trust God again and to follow His plans for my life, not my own! I feel like this is the next step in my journey. My experience on the World Race will be unlike anything else! I won’t be able to really understand what I’m walking into until I’m there and when I reflect on it. I’m going to spend a year traveling the world and ministering to others that may not even speak my own language. But that is okay, because we all know the language of love and kindness.
This will be a year outside of my comfort zone and giving God control. I’ve seen what it’s like to grieve and hurt on my own, I’ve seen what it’s like to do life out of my own strength.. and while I am a strong person.. God has a strength that is undeniable and relentless!
I am so excited to learn more about myself, the world, ministry, and most importantly my relationship with my Heavenly Father!! I pray you will join me in this journey and learn more about what God wants to tell you! Maybe God is calling you to dig more into your faith and be ALL IN?!
