The last few weeks I have had way to much time to think about who i am, who i am not. About who i could be and, who i should be. Not knowing what is truth and what are lies. Stuck in the grey confusion of my head trying to grasp onto the fleeing things that i thought were absolutes. Wishing for some sort of control to keep me from falling.
Then during the Easter service my pastor said
“ stop trying to be God, and start trusting Him”.
That hit me hard! For so long I have been trying to be my own off brand Jesus. Every time someone talk to me about being more like christ I took it completely wrong. Instead of being a servant to christ striving to show His attributes to others and let God sit on the thrown of my heart. I sat on the thrown of my heart asking the W.W.J.D question as I ruled my life. Instead of just giving Him the thrown. You are not meant to rule like God you are supposed to serve like Him! Because ruling isn’t about surrender but serving is. oh how great His surrender is, full of beauty, love, joy, grace and, peace! Moral of the story try to be more like who God is! Not your own God like Him. So as all of your supposed absolutes get thrown out the window remember that the only absolute we have is christ! Good thing He is the only one we need!
