Psalms 16:9-11 “Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body will also rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead, nor will you let your faithful one see decay. You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.”
As I wrote this down on a blue sticky note to place on my mirror last Monday, I was sure that this was something the Lord wanted me to meditate on for a while. I finished my morning routine (which usually consisted of rushing out the door… not late but not necessarily early) and getting in my car to head to morning prayer my church hosts every week. That would be one of my last drives in my small white Kia… After staying late to chat with some friends afterwards I set off for home and eventually school.
I can’s say if there is a rhyme or reason for everything, but what I do know is that the Lord was with me that morning. It is so easy to go through the motions of life and say that God is with you, but that morning I KNEW it. Rounding the corning, following a smoke-plagued trailer and truck I was momentarily taken back by it’s unusual state. Looking down for the button that clears the air in my car, I pressed the wrong one. I searched for the correct one and in looking up I was suddenly engulfed in the smoke and the trailer was feet from me. My foot searched for the brake and I braced for a short stop, but before I realized it the front of my car was colliding with what all that was visible to me being planks of wood framed by metal. Needless to say, the trailer won and my darling ride, Jojo, was a goner.
The verse states that He will NOT abandon me or let me see decay. The Lord will direct me in my life and I am confident that He is by my side. We have a good good father in heaven and I am a daughter of His. While that morning was filled with fear and anxiety I found peace in the ways the Lord was revealing Himself to me. At least 4 people from my church happened to drive by and all stopped to check on me. He let me see how I was not alone in that situation both physically and spiritually.
This is the epitome of being a child in His kingdom. As I arrived home, I went to my room to be alone for the first time since it happened. I looked in the mirror and was reminded once again how not alone I truly am. I reread the verse out loud and then again and again. My life in His hands, I could breathe easy. Through out this fundraising journey it has been albeit frightening to think of all I need to fund alone. But that is so incorrect; I am not alone. Fundraising is about support from people in your community and guidance from the Father. This has shifted my view of funding because God has already let me know that I will be arriving in Africa next summer and all I need to do is say yes. Realizing that it isn’t all up to me to raise money for this trip will allow the Lord to move in even greater ways in this journey. Saying yes will not be an easy feat for me at all times, but knowing it’s for His kingdom which I abide in gives me confidence.
