I have grown so much in the past three weeks and it’s because I know I’m exactly where the Lord wants me. He has blessed me so greatly with this opportunity to live out my calling. Believe me when I say it was not an easy process getting here. I knew the Lord was calling me here and my own fleshly desires were fighting it. Taking a break from the busy life back home is not easy. My flesh tells me that I’m missing out on so much. However, most of those desires are not eternal desires… they will not satisfy my soul.
One of my favorite things that happened this week was during a house visit. We visited a lady who had stomach issues, and she was not getting enough nutrition because she could not eat. She was asking us so many questions about our faith and was very curious. She asked us to pray for her sickness and we did. After we prayed we continued to have great conversation filled with laughter and so much love. Her smile was so radiant. Two days later we went back to her house to find her laying down and not being able to talk or move. You could look in her eyes and see the pain she was in. She didn’t say one word. She looked numb to everything going on around her. We prayed over her and asked the Lord to give her strength and to fill her with the spirit and to comfort her. We went back the next day and she was still numb to everything. We prayed over her again, and I kept asking the Lord to intercede and bring some sort of healing or a little glimpse of hope. I didn’t want to see her pain filled eyes anymore. I kept praying and praying. When we were about to leave I looked at her and she looked directly in my eyes and gave me the biggest smile. I knew that was Lord and it was his way of telling me not to worry about her and that he is still in control. In that moment, I felt the presence of the Lord and I felt complete knowing that this is exactly where he wants me.
I don’t want to be sucked into the draining lifestyle of seeking earthly possessions again. I want to live out the Lords purpose in my life. The people in this village barely know who Jesus is and it is my job as a Christ-follower to live out the great commission and make disciples of all nations through the power of the Holy Spirit. My soul will only be fully satisfied when I am fully surrendered to the Maker of Heaven.
I keep searching for that satisfaction in things of this world and it always leads to exhaustion. Being on the mission field has opened my eyes in many different ways. My prayer is that The Holy Spirit will shift my desires of living out the American dream to living out a Kingdom dream. It’s not comfortable and it’s definitely not easy, but God, in his goodness, will satisfy my soul in ways I didn’t even know I needed.
