HEY everyone! Story time!!
I am walking on the side of the road, as big buses zoomed past me, and almost knock me off my feet. Today is Sabbath, so I am headed to the beach. It’s a 3 mile walk and so deep conversations seem to arise within this timespan. As I’m walking I look down at my feet; my dirty toe ring, tanned toes from the dust and wore leather Burk straps stare back at me. I get this idea to video my feet. I start to think about, what am I doing here? How did I get to this point in my life?
All I have wanted to do since I was young is be a missionary. But I never really did anything about it. I always say “in the future I will get to go to this country.” or “when i’m older I will be more knowledgeable and have more money to go places.” or “when I know more about the Bible, i’ll be ready to go overseas.” But as I’m walking I realized, I’m living my dream. I’m living the life I have always talked about. The life I pin on pintrest or on instagram. This chaotic, unpredictable life in another country where I get to immerse myself in the culture of the country. I’m literally walking out of a jungle, with a bible in my backpack, to go into a lost city and tell people about Jesus! What the heck! Is this real?
It has taken me 3 weeks to figure this out honestly.
The first week of being in Costa Rica was a little rough. I was so frustrated with myself for not being chill and enjoying where I was. I wasn’t living in the now. My heart had not settled from the transition between Gainesville, Ga, to home, to here in Costa Rica. I felt shook with my emotions. I was struggling to see why I was here. Why I shouldn’t be home right now, with my family.
But today as I am writing this, the Lord is giving me peace and revealing to me why I am here. He knows everything I am feeling, and He is bigger than my feelings.
I am listening to the artist, Chris Renzema, and wow his songs are so powerful. One song called, God Be (definitely recommend) says “Through the JOY of LETTING GO I found my PEACE and my HOME. Letting God carry my heavy heart, and just letting go of any regret. Letting go of uncertainty. Letting go of the ‘what ifs.’ I can start to find peace wherever my feet are. I can find my home wherever my feet are, because the Lord is my home, my peace and my joy. No matter where I am living, the Lord is my home.
Even when I didn’t feel the Lord with me the first week here, I know He didn’t leave me here alone. “He doesn’t CALL where He doesn’t lead”, (another Chris Renzema line) He didn’t call me to Costa Rica or missions if He wasn’t going to be by my side the whole way. I may slip up and forget Him. I mess up and focus on worldly things, but time and time again He is faithful.
Acts 4:25-28 says, “ I saw the Lord always before me, for He is at my right hand that I may not be shaken; therefore my heart was glad and my tongue rejoiced; my flesh also will dwell in hope. For you will not abandon my soul to Hades, or let your Holy One see corruption. You have made known to me the paths of life; you will make me full of gladness with your presence.”
God knew where I am supposed to be since I before I was even born. God put me here for a reason. He is alive and is with me wherever I go.
Joshua 1:9 says, “Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”
Praise the Lord for His faithfulness. For I would be lost without Him.
Love you all!!! Thanks for your support and prayers!!!
Your prayers are so important! Please keep praying for my squad and Puerto Viejo, Costa Rica! And the hosts here, Rasta and Elsie!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH God bless you all!!!!!
