Serving or sitting?
God honestly blessed me with the best family. I didn’t realize that as much when I was younger, but I’ve come to that realization over the course of my life. From the time I was very little I was always involved somewhere in church. I was either helping dad visit the bus route, or helping out in VBS, or begging to volunteer in nursery. My life literally revolved around church. I would often joke that church was my second home. The older I got I continued to stay involved. However, if I’m being honest, when I got to college my view on being involved in ministry became distorted. It began to feel like it was a chore rather than something I enjoyed doing. My relationship with God became distant and I became very numb to what He was calling me to do. I lived in this state pretty much throughout college, and when I graduated and returned home that mindset and behavior continued. Although I had returned back to my home church, I was simply “going through the motions” rather than really being present in that moment.
Around the time we found out my dad had cancer, God showed me that he wanted me to just sit and learn in church rather than serve. You see, there is a time for both. I felt like if I wasn’t serving or involved in church I wasn’t doing the right thing, but Jesus gave us a perfect illustration of this in Luke 10. Martha was trying to do everything she could to serve Jesus, however, she was missing out on something important that he wanting to teach her. Over the last couple of years, I’ve been trying to grow, learn and work on myself spiritually.
I’ve been visiting a new church for the last 3 months or so, and I’ve learned so much. Although I definitely want to continue to learn and grow, I’m ready to jump back in and start serving. I’m not exactly sure what area God wants me to serve at church, but I am open to whatever/wherever that may be.
The World Race will also be an incredible way that my team and I will be able to serve.
During this year, I am trying to let God mold me and make into the person He wants me to be..I still have a long ways to go. I’m definitely not perfect by any means, and I still make many mistakes, but I try to remain faithful to church and sensitive to what God wants me to do next.
I cannot stress enough how much I need prayer throughout this year. The devil has already tried to make me doubt doing the World Race by saying: “you’re not good enough”, or “you won’t be able to raise the money”, or “you’re not cut out to do this.” I am constantly reminding myself that God has opened this incredible opportunity for His glory and honor, and also, to change my life.
If you’re wondering how you can help support me throughout this journey, I would ask that you keep me in your prayers frequently and that you prayerfully consider donating to my trip. I will not be able to go on this trip without support in both of these areas. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and for any support you’re able to give!
