So as some of you may know, I am suppose to be departing on a three month long mission trip to Thailand and Malaysia by the end of august – at least this was the plan prior to covid-19 (if you’re reading this and weren’t aware then you can read my previous blog post about the details in the link provided below). My trip is still scheduled to launch at this present time. However, under the certain circumstances, I am well aware that could possibly change. In knowing this, I have been trying to maul over the harsh reality of possibly not getting to go. I know my worldly self would be very disappointment because my plans would be interrupted – I imagine God humorously sitting back chuckling at my self absorbed and ignorant thinking. But as I’ve been quietly allowing the Lord to guide my footsteps through the unknowingness of it all, He has been intently whispering to my spirit. And this is what I’ve concluded from our heart talks.
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Isaiah 55:8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.
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There is not a doubt in my mind that the Lord called me to this particular mission trip at this particular time, for a particular reason. That I’m 100% sure of. However, what I was unaware of was the fabricated expectations I had created and my idea of how the journey would unfold. And the Lord has definitely been opening my eyes to that in the most gentle and loving way. God called me to this trip and He called me to raise the money for this trip, but He did not promise me my outcome and His outcome would be the same. Yes, there is a chance I will still go, there is also a chance I won’t go, along with the chance that my trip might change and I could be sent somewhere else at a later date. But what I’ve realized is that I have to be faithful in what God has called me to even when I can’t see the outcome of it all right now. Because that’s what having true faith is all about right? And I’ve been asking Him to stretch and grow my faith from the very beginning of this, I just didn’t anticipate He would deliver the opportunity to do so with the circumstances I’m faced with right now. All I can say is He is faithful in all ways people because my faith has certainly been and continues to be stretched. I have no answers, but I’ve been contemplating what God is trying to teach me through this.
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1 It could possibly be that God wants me to have faith that He will make a way when it seems foolish to others to think I could still have hope that I’m going. But I would rather look foolish to people now and in three months get to go than not fundraise and not be able to go because I did not have faith in what God could do. 2 He could have wanted me to raise the money for this trip in order to bless someone else with the funds that are raised through this. Maybe I am the messenger for a blessing God wants to give to someone else 3 He could have me raise the money only for me to get transferred to a different trip I was actually suppose to go on but He knew I wouldn’t had ended up there any other way due to my personal preference. But guess what. Proverbs 19:21 “Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails” and I have full faith in that. I’ve come to the conclusion that that’s all I need to know right now too. Whatever the Lord wants is what I pray my spirit will accept and acknowledge is best for me. No matter the outcome, I want to have an open heart towards it and not let my self made disappointment get in the way of seeing God at work in my life. I don’t want to miss what He is trying to change within me because He is always at work.
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Therefore YES I am still fundraising for my trip and will soon have T-shirts for sale. If you are interested in buying T-shirts stay tuned for more info SOON. If you want to skip that and just donate click the donate bar at the top of this page. I don’t care if it’s $10 people, every bit helps and is SO appreciated as I cannot do this without the support of others. Thank you, THANK YOU
