My life didn’t dramatically change when I met Jesus because I wasn’t living completely for him. I’ve always struggled with secular ideals and catered to my worldly mind. Up to my sophomore year I was living for me and I thank God that I am not living like that anymore. I remember going through life with a fog in front of my eyes and no light in front of me. My dad was in and out of the house and I’d never know wether or not he’d be there when I got home. Not having a stable and Godly father figure impacted me in ways I didn’t realize until Jesus saved me. I never had an open and honest relationship with my mom. I never felt comfortable to tell her how I felt and how I was struggling with mental health. I thank God everyday for the salvation he gave me that I do not deserve. I don’t know if I would have been here today if it weren’t for Jesus grabbing my hand before I fell of the edge of depression. I’m not complaining about what happened to me though because I know that he has and will use my experience for greater things. If those things had not happened to me then I would have never felt desperate and would’ve have never sought after Him.
My junior year is when I completely surrendered to his plan for me. I believed in him and went to church and all the stuff you’re expected to do but I wasn‘t changed. I was still going through life with a fog not knowing what to do or why I was doing it. I came to the realization that I couldn’t live the rest of my life like this and knew I had to change my lifestyle with God holding my hand along the way. I immediately changed churches because the church I was going to was an unhealthy environment that was constricting my ability to follow Jesus. After doing this, my church and my spiritual mentors have helped me grow in my relationship so much and they’ve given me the opportunity to do the same with younger generations. I’m able to lead worship on Sunday’s and lead the youth band. God Has given me the amazing opportunity to pour into youth and adults at my church and it’s created so many lifelong relationships. The trials I was put through to get to this point were so worth it and I don’t ever wish that I hadn’t experienced those things because they made me the bold, passionate, woman of God I am today. I want to thank Jesus for becoming the light in the fog and opening my mind to the many wonders of his love. It will be hard to leave my people behind on the race but I am ready to abandon my comfortable life to share my story and give other people the hope that Jesus gave to me.
