Over the past few years I have found myself struggling to fully trust God in all areas of my life. I would say, “God I trust you and want your will” while at the same time holding things back from Him like a child that doesn’t want to share their toy. I gave God access to certain parts of my life when it was convenient and beneficial to me. I found myself overwhelmed with stress and anxiety when things didn’t go according to my plan. At the end of my freshman year of college I hit a wall. I began doubting God’s plan for my life. I knew that His plan was something bigger than myself and yet there I was striving to fulfill a God-sized calling, without God. I had not trusted Him with my academics. I was relying on my own abilities and strengths to get me through school. I found myself so tired many days. Not the kind of tired where I needed sleep, but the tired that was deep down. I was exhausted, drained, and burnt out. This is when I realized that I NEED God in all areas of my life. I can’t just give Him pieces because didn’t Jesus give me His ALL?! I made a decision that this game that I was playing with God had to come to an end. I put my trust in God completely and He gave me the strength that I needed. He started to help me pick up the pieces of my life that had failed in my own efforts. Now I have made some major changes most notably, a mindset change from “I got this,” to “God’s got this.” I also shifted my priorities to start each day with prayer and worship. This helps me recognize daily that God is the Lord of my life. He showed me that His plan will prevail, even when I fail. I think that sometimes it is hard to trust God because we are human. It is difficult to put your trust in something that can’t be completely understood. Walking by faith is hard, and I am still new to my faith journey. On the other side of my struggle has come some blessings. God has grown me spiritually in so many ways. I lean into Him when life becomes stressful or overwhelming. God also has given me this amazing opportunity that allows me to take next semester off before I begin nursing school to focus on something bigger than myself. In January 2020 I will be traveling to Guatemala and Nicaragua to share His love. It is crazy to think that 6 months ago I gave God my all and now I get to be a part of something so incredible. I hope to spend this time setting aside electronics, friends, and even family in order to strengthen my relationship with God. I can’t wait to tell y’all about all of my great experiences on this journey.
-Cheyenne Lucky
“Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill His promises to her.” -Luke 1:45
