Hi friends!
Guess what?! Saturday night, Oct. 10 i did the big chop and shaved my head!! Something I’ve been wanting to do for 2 years now 🙂
What triggered the desire to do it now? Well I cut bangs then a mullet to raise money for this mission, knowing that I would shave my head in the end. However I chopped it earlier than planned. Saturday morning I just wanted to spend time with the Lord to ask him when and why I wanted to do this. I’ve felt the Lord calling me to shave my head but I wanted to know the exact reason.
So, I started by listening to “Lay It All Down” by Will Reagan and I immediately starting crying. In this, God revealed that I am much more insecure in myself than I thought I was. I’ve been carrying this weight that I’m not good enough and nuisance to people, as well as a few insecurities in my looks. It was a time of realizing that the incredibly kind compliments & validation I receive is something I rely on & not just a confidence booster. I felt the Lord telling me to look to him to find my worth. I am a prized possession of his. He made meexactly how he wanted me to be. How I come and what I bring to his table is perfectly enough for him. Shaving my head is an act ofsaying yes to the Lord & allowing a fresh start in my life. One that allows me to accept and love myself for who I am and one that trusts the Lord in who he says I am. I am giving him all of me. I‘m laying my hair at his feet in order to receive the joy and freedom he has in store for me when I fully except myself in him & not others.
Thank you guys for reading!! I couldn’t be happier with my decision 🙂
Love you all dearly!
Camille
