I really like to dance. Really like to dance. I don’t think you understand how much I like to dance. Am I good? No! Is it fun? YES! I dance when I’m stressed, I dance when I’m happy and I really dance when I’m sad. There is something so freeing about dancing; just blasting ‘Classic’ by MKTO, not caring who’s watching and just boogying down. Ya know? When I dance, I completely let go and let the music kinda take control of my movements. Why do I dance? Because it reminds me of the Lord’s freedom. It allows me to take off the challenges that the day holds. It allows the joy, struggle, pain and hope of each day to uproot and in the end leads to celebration.
If you haven’t heard, WR Gap Year is hard. It is emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually challenging. Two weeks ago I had to humble myself and choose into forgiveness even when I didn’t want to. The week after that I had to choose to grieve some pretty tough seasons that the Lord brought up and wanted to walk me through. Last Wednesday night He brought up some past mistakes that I hadn’t even brought before Him and it HURT. Just the other day, the amazing women of my squad had to complete a fitness challenge; I chose to leave my squad behind, focus on my needs and not lead in unity.
With each struggle and mistake, shame found its way in and due to my human nature the feeling of shame is inevitable. After the fitness challenge, my incredible Squad Leader asked, “what is holding you back from celebrating?” and I didn’t plan to say it but the word, “shame,” left my lips. I was convicted of how I treated my team. The conviction was valid, but the feeling of shame and condemnation was not. I allowed it to take me down and prohibit my celebration. I didn’t allow myself to celebrate the fact that HIS power is made perfect in my weakness(2 Corinthians 12:9). Yes, I made mistakes but it says that, “I will boast all the more gladly in my weakness because Christ’s power may rest on me.”
In Hebrew the word for boast is, kauchaomai, which means: to glory (whether with reason or without); to glory on account of a thing; to glory in a thing. Woah. The thing about shame is, it’s just a feeling. It is not true and has no hold on you because Christ put it to death on the cross. mistakes don’t define me but will mold me into the person who God calls me to be if I allow His power to rest in my weakness. THEN I GET TO BOAST! I have the blessing and honor of shouting out His glory. So I’m gonna dance in the freedom that lies in the glory of His power in my weakness.
In 2 Corinthians 3:17 it says, “Where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom.” The word freedom here in Hebrew is Eleutheria. Eleutheria means; true liberty is living as we should not as we please. Freedom is not meant to sit still; it is an action. We have the l i b e r t y to not do what our old self wants us to do. We have the joy and honor of rejoicing in the freedom the Lord has set before us. Shame has no room because His love paid The price for our freedom. We now walk free like Barrabbus!!
What are you going to do with the freedom of the Lord?
