Hello, welcome to my blog, it’s taken me awhile to put this up, because the realization that I’ve been accepted onto this trip took about a month to settle in. I’ve been on this incredible journey of learning the voice of the Lord, recognizing his voice in the mundane, in the business of life, and even in the still moments. I’ve always had this knowledge that the God of the Bible was still alive today, but I wanted to experience it in my life, which started my journey.
You see, about there years ago, I was sitting on a bluff, looking over a small town by the ocean in Alaska. I felt ordinary, just a simple human, but I could feel this strong call over my life, telling me there was more, I just needed to surrender. I knew that I couldn’t surrender all on my own, because I was selfish, I knew for me to surrender everything, I needed everything to be stripped away. So I lifted a life altering prayer, ”Jesus, if you want me to follow you, you’re gonna have to take everything away, because I need to cling to you but I’m clinging to many things now that are distracting.” I was asking God for an intervention in my life.
Little did I know how impactful that prayer was going to be. Four months later I was stripped down to nothing on my knees. I lost my health, I lost my job, I lost my relationship, and my car. I found myself on my knees every night, begging Jesus to take this hole that I felt inside of me. To fill it with his love, to take me out of this hurt, I wanted the easy way out. I didn’t want to cry every night, I didn’t want to get on my knees, I didn’t want to have swollen eyes in the morning.
That season, I was met by a gracious God. I made a friend, found a Father, and was led by the green pasture. My soul began to recognize life and began to soar with spring of life. What once was dead, new life began to spring forth. The life of a surrendered heart, brings life to the deepest death.
The last three years was a life of focusing on clinging on the word, and praying every moment of my day. I needed a father to come and meet me in the mess with the gentleness of a dove. But I needed a father to discipline my heart to grow for the best. I needed a savior to restore the brokenness in the depths of my soul.
Now, it’s my turn…
The other day I was reading Psalm 40:10, and felt a conviction from the Holy Spirit.
Psalm 40:10 I have not hidden your deliverance within my heart;
I have spoken of your faithfulness and your salvation;
I have not concealed your steadfast love and your faithfulness
from the great congregation.
You see, I feel too uncomfortable sharing everything the Lord has done in my life. I tend to be more private, then open about everything going on in my heart. I hear the Lord tell me to go and be bold, but I run to my room and watch a movie, because that’s comfortable. I grew up as a missionary, so I always shared the gospel to all the corners. I formed different ministry opportunities for many people, but when it came to my testimony of who Jesus has become to me, to the bedroom I ran.
This conviction of hiding his deliverance in my heart grew too heavy, which is why I am now posting this blog, to tell you I got chosen to run a race next year of sharing the gospel to 11 different countries in 11 months. It is my turn now to tell the world of his goodness, because I’ve tasted and seen of it. I’ve tasted the sweetness of his goodness, mercy, grace and heard the whisper of his voice calling my identity. He called my name, and out of the grave I came running.
I can’t do it on my own, I will need your support. I am working my butt off these next few months before I am launched. If you feel led to donate, the donate button is above. If you feel led to pray, partner with me for each nation, that the gospel would be sheared, people will be healed, and released of death. That life will form in each home, unity built, and freedom brought to so many. That the conviction of sharing of the deliverance will stay till my dying breath and courage will grow. Fear will flee and courage will take its place.
Nations that will be reached:
Bolivia
Argentina
Chile
Spain
Montenegro
Greece
Macedonia
Ethiopia
Kenya
Nepal
India
