My entire life I’ve felt like I’ve been running from something, but I never felt like I had a destination. No matter where I’ve been or what I’ve been doing it just felt like something was missing.
Now I’m here, in Gainesville, not where I thought I would end up. I have seen so many amazing things happen since I got here. I’ve seen God provide as I watched a teammate raise $800 in 30 minutes. I surrendered my pride as my squad did the most physically demanding hike that I have ever been on (words can not explain). I have gained an amazing community in my squad. In vulnerability my teammates have become my sisters. I have grown and changed so much in these few weeks. Without God none of these things would have been possible.
In the past I had spent so much of my time making it look like I knew and understood what God had planned for me, that I started to believe I did. In reality I was still relying on my own strength and trying to make my own way. I thought if I just kept going eventually I would find a place I wanted to be. Now that I’m here with nowhere else to go I have learned that I am not the one in control of my journey, God is. While I was blindly running away, God was leading me here, and here I am ready to serve the kingdom in whatever way He sees fit.
So I’m here, in Gainesville, and still running. Now, I’m running towards God.
