So much has changed in such a short amount of time. I’m in a new city. I’m surrounded by new people. I’m attending a new church. I’m in a new school. There is so much newness going on around me, but the beauty of it all is there is also a newness happening inside of me.
I have been learning so much in just one week here at LCU I wish I could share it all with you but that is a little unrealistic. So I decided to go with one of the biggest lessons I have learned it’s something I was already planning on sharing with you guys then today in class John Bevere showed a video that beautifully illustrated what I have been learning.
I wish I could show you the video, but unfortunately I dont have access to it. So I am going to do my best to draw a picture with my words for you.
So the video opens with a man sleeping in a jail cell.(let’s name him Bob) A guy comes in and wakes him up (man 2 will be named Tom) and says come on Bob we are getting you out of here we have to go now because the door is only open for a short time. So Bob gets up and follows Tom out of his cell. While in the walkway Bob turns around and goes back into his cell. Tom follows him and asks what are you doing? Bob response was one thing I learned in here is that I look good in orange as he is gathering all his clothes. Tom convinces him to leave his clothes and leave again. Once again Bob goes back this time he is trying to take his bed because he has grown comfortable in it. Tom once again convinces him to leave the bed behind and leave because the doors wont stay open long. While in the hallway Bob says wait can we go after tomorrow? Tomorrow is hot dog day and man I love hot dog day. Tom at this point is like really man once you get out of this building you can buy any food you want come on lets go. Bob goes back to his cell again. This time he is getting cigarettes to give to his buddy because they have a business together and he wants to give them to him. While in the cell this time the alarm goes off and the doors shut. Tom has no choice but to leave without Bob at this time. Bob realizes he is back in his cell, locked up and pleads for Tom to come back. He is crying and saying I will let go I dont need any of this I’ll give it up.
Wow.
As I watched this video I sat and thought to myself God what have you been calling me to do that I am not following you in? What are things in my life that I am holding on to? That I am turning back around to go get? The biggest answer that I heard was control. The 2nd was comfort.
How many times do we feel the Lord telling us something or directing us in a direction but we dont listen or we make up excuses to “not hear him” because it isnt our way. It’s not how we imagined it or thought it would turn out. Or maybe it will make is uncomfortable. Maybe God says speak to that person you dont know in the middle of a store but that’s uncomfortable, they may reject me, people may think whatever……
I have been guilty of all of these things. I have been guilty of trying to figure out How God is going to provide. I have been guilty of caring way too much about what other people think. And I have been guilty of wanting to stay in my comfort zone. But what if in doing that we never leave the cell. We never get out of prison.
I dont want to hold on to ANYTHING unless it is the hand of Jesus as he is leading me out of my jail cell and into freedom. Where I can buy any kind of food I want and not be limited to hot dogs.
Father,
I pray for each and every single person that has read this blog post. I have no idea who all will come across this. The beautiful thing is that you do. Lord I pray that you would reveal to them yourself. That you would show them what they are holding on to that is not you, and give them the grace needed to lay out down. When they do father I pray that you would replace the things that were in there hands with your scarred hand as you lead them on the path you have created for them. Also if anyone who is reading this may not truly know you I pray father you would reveal yourself to them and that they would know and understand your love for them.
In Jesus name amen.
Hopefully all of that made sense! Thank yall for joining me in this journey. I love each and every single one of you. Also I am still needing tuition for LCU and I have a $5,000 deadline for the WR by the end of this month. If you feel lead to join with me and partner with me financially it would be greatly appreciated because I can not do any of this on my own.
Love you all!
Michelle
Dont forget this is OUR journey. Here are 4 simple ways to join with me.
1. Prayer – I have started walking 2.5 miles daily to prepare physically so ontop of my financial needs please pray for my physical body as I am trying to get it where it needs to be
2. Donations – there is a button up top that says donate that goes directly to adventures in missions or you can reach out to me if you want to donate any other way.
3. Subscribe – best way to get all the blogs first hand! You click the subscribe button then everytime I share something you get it first!
4. Share – if anything touched your heart SHARE it. You never know how many of your friends needed to hear the same thing.
