Hey everyone!!
I just finished my four days of training camp and I am currently on a plane to Florida then I’m off to Nicaragua. It’s honestly so crazy and my emotions definitely come in waves. These past 4 days have been a challenge for sure. I have struggled with so much anxiety, fear, doubt, and worry. I had many moments where I broke down and really was unsure if I could go forward with this next step. In those moments All I could do was take my fear to god. These past 4 days even though they were challenging I definitely grew from them. I prayed a lot. I journaled a lot. I worshiped a lot. One thing God constantly reminded me was that I am not alone and that brought me so much peace. He reminded me that even though I missed home and felt weak that this is what he called me to do and if this wasn’t where I was supposed to be then he would have not let me get there. I was reminded that god was in control and that I had to let go. I also had to remind myself that I was around so many other people who had the same fears. My team quickly became my support even though we just met. We found comfort in each other. I was reminded that it was okay to cry and that it was normal to feel those emotions but that doesn’t mean you are incapable of this next step. I won’t lie this is hard but I am hopeful. I know that this is going to be an amazing journey and will have a huge impact on me. I’m willing to listen to God in these next few months and really fully trust in him. I am excited and open to what is in store. I can’t wait to grow closer to god and these amazing people around me. I can’t wait to go and share God’s love with those who really need it. All I can say is THANK YOU a million times to all of you who have been praying and supporting me. I would not be able to do this without the amazing support and love. I love you all and I can not wait to share these next few months with you all!
