I grew up in a decent size town in Iowa. When I was young I appeared to two churches. I was raised Catholic but I did attend a Baptist Church as well. My step dad did not want us going to the Baptist Church anymore so we only attended the Saint Mathias Catholic Church. I did not understand the priest when he was talking because we attended the Spanish Mass. Even though I did not know what he was saying I understood the overall take of things from the Baptist Church. Life was good for awhile.
Eventually we stopped going because my step dad got departed. I never understood why it happened because my mom and him were married. None the less it happened. I was angry and done with God. I would yell, disown, and curse God. My mom did not handle it well. She would be upset for days. That is when life got ugly.
Everything went down hill at home. If you met me, even when it was going on, you would never know how my life was at my household. I was always happy, energetic, and active. We went through some hard times as a family. I would always go back to God but never stayed with it. I knew he was there, but couldn’t stay faithful to the religion.
I later joined the military and got deployed. There, I started worshiping God, talked to him daily, and watched sermons. In my section there were five people who were devoted to Christianity. I would talk to most of them about their viewpoints about God and The Bible. How they perceived a certain scripture and tell them my aspects on it.
DeVries was one of the believers that would insist on trying to get you to church and tells you how much God loves you. She did not know how to always talk to people but she tried. Out of everyone I met in my life she was the closest to a Jesus figure. She passed away a few months after coming back home. It was tragic and made me furious.
How can someone with all that faith and passion die so early. Did she achieve her purpose? Was this a Ying and Yang effect? A domino effect? The inevitable? This death got me to press the link to the World of Race website. I have always believed in God but I was never faithful. I hope this part of my spiritual journey gives me a peace of mind. Help me build a stronger bond with the Lord and Savior. With your help I will be able to work on that bond with no distractions and with people who are there to do the same.
