On this trip, one theme has stuck out to me and out of that a new one has formed. Let me elaborate a whole lot more.
Something he put on my heart, during self love week, about 3 weeks ago, was love. Now, as a Christian, I have grown up always knowing God loves me. However, I am a human and I look for love or acceptance in worldly things. So, when he brought this to my attention I was taken a back. Like, God yeah I know you love me, why make me question? I have been realizing that he wants me to believe it on a deep level, he wants me to learn who he is because He loves me. There is a softer side to his character than him being powerful and reigning over all life on earth. Two nights ago he told me he was a father and I was created to be his daughter. He is our Heavenly Father, but he has all the soft, loving characteristics of a earthly father, but is perfect in every aspect. I decided to write out what that means, as a reminder for myself. It is the following:
“God is a father. Now, yes our Heavenly Father, but He has every intention as an earthly father, and is perfect in each way. He is a cozy lap to sit on after a long day, He is the shoulder to sit and cry on, He is the caregiver of all caregivers, He is the biggest fan I’ve ever had and will ever have. He loves me with the TRUEST form of love. He’s my dad. He holds my hand and walks with me. I was created in perfection to be His daughter. Don’t forget to take time to lay back in his lap and rest. Let His peace take over every part of your body. He’s a father, that’s what He longs to do. I am the love of his life.”
The love that I am still finding and learning to feel completely from Him, is what I need before I can allow someone else to love me, and will allow be to love others better.
His love also comes with faithfulness. He is faithful to us because he loves us.
God has reminded me of so many times that he has been faithful and provided me with exactly what I needed in the perfect timing. It is one of the hardest things for me to remember. That’s because I am an anxious person, and an over thinker. I worry and worry and worry. BUT, my leader Tina Nolt told me, that I can trust God more than whatever I am worrying about that is in front of me. I will experience the good things God has for me because He is faithful because He loves me.
This is something that I have to remind myself of daily, and God is still helping me and slowly revealing more to me. However, it is something that I can cling to daily to help me rely on Him.
This past week has been a week where I crave home. I’ve longed to be home and I’ve missed every person at home. God has been the only piece of sanity. I put in headphones, listen to a song about His love, and I rest. I let Him fill the void in my heart of things that I’m missing.
Thank you for following along and your prayers are needed! We are currently staying in Quito for another week. Adventures in Missions ruled that, that was the way for us to stay safe with riots worsening.
Love you all!
Emma
