hello
y’all, God provides, and he is friggin awesome lemme tell you.
a couple weeks ago during a weekly phone call with my sqaudmate anna, we were catching up and giving updates on our fundraising process. she has been fundraising since september and has passed her 2 fundraising goals! YAY ANNA! but that brought big stress onto me after realizing I had 2 months to get $5,000 to meet my first deadline. every time funds would be brought up in conversation between anna & i, i would automatically shut it down attempting to dodge the overwhelming stress of fundraising on my own. you see, the issue and stressor wasn’t fundraising but the fact i was attempting to do it all on my own. i’m a dummy- homies please don’t be like me and try and take it on yourself. rely on God don’t be foolish- he’s got you !! once i realized i’m foolish not trusting God’s abilities, i turned my mindset on to: okay if Abba wants this to happen then its gonna happen, no more stress. gotta stop trying to hop in the driver’s seat when i’m already buckled in the passenger seat. once that mindset started to become my norm, i began experiencing peace… then BAM all these funds started coming in & KEPT coming in! i didn’t want to tell any of my squad that funds were coming in and easing my anxiety because i was still a little doubtful. i already know The Lord was kinda rollin’ his eyes at me because He was sending all the funds to me yet I was still skeptical and not vulnerable to trusting God with the money situation. I was extremely timid to have the “all in” attitude but continued to force myself to stay relaxed in the passenger seat. yo- Abba provides. money seems like a giant mountain to me but no matter what mountain is faced,
I will praise You on the mountain
And I will praise you when the mountain’s in my way
You’re the summit where my feet are
So I will praise You in the valleys all the same
No less God within the shadows
No less faithful when the night leads me astray
You’re the Heaven where my heart is
now-a-days when anna & i bring up that memory of when i shut down the conversation of fundraising, we just laugh. fundraising is serious business but man do we get a kick out of the fact I was so foolish to not trust God fully when it came to funds. of course i would tell myself “yo, the Lord provides stop stressin’” but I would still allow stress to seep in a lil bit. silly me. i’m so foolish! God shows up when you need Him. trust Him- He provides. don’t be foolish. if that dude can make this whole universe, if He can create you and me our complex selves, then $16k is nOtHiNg to Him.
i’m foolish & still controlling sometimes but yo, our God STILL shows up ! He’s pretty cool like that.
i want to thank alllllllll of you humans who have supported me and have allowed the Lord to show you He’s about to use me in incredible ways to shine His light to the world. thank you thank you for supporting me financially because WOHOOOO i’ve raised $5,000 !! fundraising goal #1, CHECK !!
You humans are awesome. God is SO super awesome.
thankyouthankyouthankyouuuuu. without y’alls kindness and support i wouldn’t be where i am today. thank you for supporting me and being the reason i continue on my journey. love yall ! you rock & will never go unnoticed :)))
much love,
emi
