The Last One
ugh. writing this breaks my heart. but i have to stay faithful to the thing i hear God calling me to.
due to recent events, i will not be going on the world race.
this decision isn’t made out of fear, i know that may be the immediate assumption, it is made out of obedience and love, the same emotions i felt when choosing to go.
yes, COVID has been a hot topic lately, but it is not the only reason for my decision. the repercussions have affected all aspects of life and normalcy, including my family. no, nobody in my family has tested positive, but i have family members that would suffer tremendously if they were to pick it up, even from me as i still work in healthcare.
i moved back in with my family last summer to help with medical conditions and to help save money in preparation for the world race. we as a family are discussing the possibility of relocating to be closer to my family’s medical providers and hospitals. this in itself is a big decision and process, and i just don’t feel like this is the time for me to be away from them for a year.
i want to be clear, in no way do i feel that i am a better caretaker than our great Physician. God can do what He wills with my life or the lives of my family, no matter where we are on this planet. but after my relationship with the Lord and His will for my life, my top priority is my family. i hope you all understand this as my attempt to love, serve, and protect them the best i can.
when God presented this opportunity to me, He told me this was a time to grow my trust and faith in Him. and that i have. He has opened my eyes and ears and heart to His goodness and love for His people. i have been loved and supported by many of you. i have met and connected with amazing individuals who have completed the world race and who are preparing to go. i have been challenged to look to God in the unknowns and ya know what? He has always been there. He is always there. and He will always be there.
i don’t believe the door to international missions is closed for me. just this particular one. and as much as it stings that this won’t be in my future, i’m excited to look for what He will have for me now. my hastag #letsGO is still relevant, i’m still go-ing, He’s just leading me to go in a different direction.
i hope to stay in contact with my squad and i hope that you, my supporters, continue to support me as i stay faithful and obedient to the callings God places on my life.
a big thank you (and hug when this is all over) to everyone who supported me with funds and with time and especially with all the encouraging words – i could never say how much they mean to me.
until the next one,
chelsie
