For all my life I hated the question “what are you passionate about?” Because I honestly never knew. It would make me so mad at God, like why am I not good at school, sports, music, etc. I prayed for years for purpose in this life and to finally be able to answer that burning question everyone asks. Not so I can only answer it but to actually be passionate, filled with purpose and live that out.
I’m sure you’re expecting by the end of this I’ll finally be able to tell all things I’m passionate about now but actually no, so let’s get that expectation out of the way.
Well then why are you writing this if you don’t fully know? I’m glad you asked, because It’s not always about the end goal but the process. Nobody talks about the good, ,the bad and the ugly it takes to get to that ‘end goal.’
The past five years I’ve learned patience, something I’m still working on, nobody likes to wait let’s be real. I found purpose in my job, and no not waking up at 4:30 am to pour coffee, but to step into leadership and learn. I was pushed so far out of my comfort zone. I grew so much. My manager Amy showed me what it looks like to fight for yourself, and stand up for what you deserve. Also I never had someone in the workplace fight for me, and push me higher ever in my life. She taught me how to do that for others. Now I love to be the one to help others in areas I have knowledge, and watch them succeed. Now something I know I’m passionate about. Wow, now I have at least one thing…but wait there’s more.
I’m passionate about my relationship with God…I know, I know that sounds cheesy.
It’s true though. I’ve found my identity in Him, and I don’t have to search for who I think I am. I know who Alyssa is, and I get to walk in confidence that I was born to be loved by God. I’m a child of God, and because of that I have the responsibility to love people well (again something I’ll always need help with, because loving people isn’t always easy). To our world we live in ‘loving people well’ doesn’t sound like a purpose but it is. I mean it’s literally a commandment. Anyway this is a long winded way to say I may not know all my passions yet or the layout of what I want to do career wise my whole life. But maybe just maybe it isn’t about your career or all your passions, but about loving people like God loves us along the way of life and that’s actually the ‘end goal.’ And that gives me purpose.
