For a very long time, I have struggled with what society has told me I wanted and what I actually want. Ultimately all while trying to figure out what God wants. Knowing what we want, what we need, the difference between the two, and how to attain these things at this point seems like the meaning of life for me. It is important to figure out what you and God want for your life, then make a game plan, if you really want something you will do whatever it takes to do it, but don’t step on people to get there.
What I Do Want
I want a big house full of foster kids. A family that supports me and loves the Lord. Horses for military ministry and youth camps. Most of all though, I want to be successful and not struggle.
For the past couple of months, I have seen how these things work, how attainable my dreams really are, and I am almost sure my dreams do lineup with God’s.
At Fabi’s Casa Blanca I saw how it was possible to have a big house filled with kids that are not your own. At Wendy’s, her husband is the pastor of the church we have been working with, leads his family first with love of the Lord. Good God-fearing men do exist and I won’t settle for something less than what God wants for me and my family.
What I Don’t Want
I don’t want a big house full of stuff. I don’t want a picture-perfect family. A burdensome amount of land or animals that no one will help me with. Most of all though, I don’t want to not be doing what God put me on this Earth to be doing.
On the race, while meeting all these beautiful examples of well-rounded families I see that had I of followed through with what my friends and family told me I wanted or what they thought I should I have done I would have struggled severely.
As in talking about obeying the will of God and what follows, living the way he didn’t want me to live would ultimately have resulted in things I didn’t actually want either. I don’t ever want to live like that.
‘Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass.’ (Psalms 37:4-5 NKJV)
