You know that moment when your whole life is apparent? That moment when you know exactly what God wants you to do with your life? I had that moment this morning.
A lot of people know their calling from a young age. A lot of people grow up doing exactly what they’re parents, grandparents, or the rest of the world says to do or have done. My life has taken a different path, a different turn of events. My whole life I grew up dreaming of becoming different things but always becoming a mother and a wife. It wasn’t until I began college that I felt so out of place, so distraught, so unhappy. I thought I was in the right place because that’s what everyone said was right, but I knew something was wrong. I decided to take a year off of school and pray about what I was called to do by God. I signed up for a three month mission trip with The World Race to Central America and let the journey begin!
While in Nicaragua I found a key on the side of the road in the most random of places. I picked it up and thought that it was a cute little souvenir. The more I looked at it the more I kept thinking that it was meant for me to find and that it wasn’t just coincidence. Here in Costa Rica I found yet another key..this time in the middle of a jungle near a river. This key looked like a destination symbol. I’ve been praying for years about what the Lord wants me to do with my life and I asked that He would open new doors. He gave me keys to tell me that He is opening new doors, He is answering my prayers, He is leading me to new destinations and down a different path.
My God moment today was outside of a cafe overlooking the city, mountains, and water fountains arching over the sidewalk. I was listening to a new song by Ruel called “Hard Sometimes.” It reminded me of how much I miss people at home and it struck me that I’m missing out on so much at home. I prayed for peace and I looked around me at the views of Jaco and realized that even though I am missing out on things at home I am doing so much here, with new people, new friends, new family. In that moment I knew that my God is so good! My God is so big! My God is a Comforter! My God is a God of love and peace!
I texted my friend to pray that the Lord would grant clarity for what I’m supposed to do once I return to the States and I began praying while listening to my tunes. While I sat there a random teenage boy came and sat at a table near me and pulled out his guitar. He began playing guitar and I stopped everything I was doing and cried while watching him strum and sing. Literally, my whole life flashed before my eyes and I knew right then and there exactly what I’m supposed to do when I go home. God is calling me to a life of music and missions! I get to praise God and serve so many people for the rest of my life and I could never be more excited! Peace, clarity, joy, love all hit me in one instance and you can bet that I sobbed because I know that my God doesn’t forsake me, He doesnt ignore my prayers, He loves me, and He wants to walk with me every step of the way.
Sometimes the Lord answers our prayers through a word spoken over us. Sometimes it’s through phrase sung. Sometimes it’s visible sign. I never imagined that He would move in my life as much as He has on this trip and in this time of seeking after Him. My advice to you is that you never lose hope and faith in God because He is always finding ways to move in your life and answer your prayers. Be open to really listen to Him and accept whatever He has to tell you.
