Man oh man! God has been so amazing!
Whenever I feel like giving up on my purpose God has been stepping in for me. Over spring break in March me and my friends had a girls retreat for our middle school and high school girls that we mentor. We had different sessions talking about self-care, self love, mental illness and past hurt that needs to be worked out And released. So at first we had several women who were coming in to be over sessions and we were just going to be there to support and handle the logistics of things. Unfortunately we had someone who canceled the day before and I was asked to take the place. Now for some people that know me they know that I love to talk LOL! I’ve always enjoyed public speaking and just talking to people about life that I figured this would be good. However the scary part for me was incorporating Bible, i’m not as strong in the word as I would like to be but it is something that I have been working on. I just didn’t want to start speaking and forget Bible because I have so many life experiences to be able to talk about. But the way that God stepped in and gave me what to say it turned out to be an amazing experience. I was able to get them to open up about things that they had never talked about and it became emotionally overwhelming. What hurt the most was the fact that most of the things that they were talking about was something that I had to endure as a teenager as well but the difference was I did not have someone like myself to be able to reach out to and talk about these things so that I didn’t have to deal with them on my own. It just hurt me to my core to know that there was nothing I could do to take the pain away but only to pray that God just has mercy on their souls. That experience for me was life-changing And I was able to see my growth, before I would not let things affect me but now I tend to take on emotions and problems of others so that they can feel better and I can somehow take their pain for them. For weeks now I have been dealing with all the things that we had spoken about at the retreat and literally my heart has not been the same. My purpose is to tell my story, to love on these girls and speak life into them. I won’t ever stop encouraging these girls and letting them know they are loved and wonderfully made by God.
I had them all repeat a affirmation I wrote that says:
I will not allow the lies and deceptions that I think of myself turn me into a fraud! I am beautifully and wonderfully made and loved by my father! ????
