Many of you have been asking why I decided to apply for the world race, why these specific countries and what I’ll be doing. Well, to be completely honest, I have no idea. Like i mentioned in my previous post, this whole thing happened so fast. One night I found myself on the World Race website applying for their Gap Year Program (and I hadn’t thought about the World Race in many years), then a couple days later I had been accepted.
For the people that know me personally, you know I’m not the most “low maintenance” person you’ve ever met. I’ve never been one to step out of my comfort zone, I like being home, places I’m familiar with, where I consider “safe”.
So to answer your questions in more detail, I don’t know why, but what I do know is this is the plan God has for me. He put the World Race in the back of my mind that day for reasons I’m not sure of yet, but He’ll make it clear to me in His timing.
Honestly, I’m having doubts. I’m doubting my ability to leave home for nine months, I can’t stop thinking about having to live out of one bag, and the thought of being out of my little “safety bubble” is absolutely terrifying. But at the same time God put the World Race into my head, He put the song “So Will I by Southside Worship” in my heart. Some of the lyrics from the song are “If creation still obeys You, so will I… If the wind goes where You send it, so will I… If You gladly chose surrender, so will I… If You gave your life to love them, so will I.” And I’ve decided that so will I. Even in all of my doubts and worry, so will I, because I have peace that is like none other. Peace that I couldn’t possibly describe or come up with on my own. I know that God brought me to this decision for a purpose. I have full confidence that one day I’ll know why, and I’m okay with not knowing His reasoning today, tomorrow, or even in 365 days form now. All I know is I’m going on this trip because if the wind goes where He sends it, so will I.
