I never thought I was controlling. Yes, I knew I wanted to control certain things, but I never thought “I’m a controlling person.” I still don’t think that about myself, but the Lord has really been showing me that I need to give up control of certain things to find full peace.
Being away from home (2,156 miles away actually) is harder than hard. I’ve mentioned it before, being homesick is a real thing. I’m finding it difficult to not be able to talk to everyone back at home about all that is going on all the time. I love hearing what’s going on in people’s lives, it’s one of my favorite things. That being said, not being able to fully know what’s going on at home all the time isn’t exactly easy.
God is showing me how to trust Him to find peace while being away. Not a ton is happening back home, but enough for me to crave knowing just how my parents, my family, and Nate are doing 24/7. Sometimes, when I talk to them on weekends, I can tell they’ve had a hard week. For me, when I’m home, I’m constantly talking to them about how their days are and am somewhat putting myself in the middle of their situations to talk to them about it, but o can’t do that in the season I’m in. God has really been teaching me that it’s more important to trust Him and trust that He will take care of them when I can’t, and it has been amazing.
I can only do so much for my family while I’m gone. Good thing prayer is a tool I am able to use throughout my weeks to give me peace. Knowing God is the one in charge of helping us through our situations gives me comfort. I’m reminded that it’s not on me to be the one making sure everyone is happy and doing okay. Yes, when I’m home I have the tool to listen and give advice, but I’m away and I’m not always going to be able to have long conversations on all that is happening. That’s where God reminds me that He will take care of all of it and I need not to worry.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.” -??Philippians? ?4:6?
I think we all can learn from this. We need to stop worrying so much about others and start listening to what God wants from us to help them. I promise it will always start with praying about it and letting God take care of what He has to before you step in. Don’t be worried, God knows what people need more than we do.
It’s been a couple weeks since I’ve posted, so sorry! I’ve been busy and have also been learning every day. I have been doing really good, it’s just hard to keep up with it all and put it into words for you. I try my best though! I’m officially done with month two! This is my last month in Guatemala, so I’m soaking it up as much as I can. I’m going to try to keep up the posts again like before. I Love you all so much!!
Prayer Requests:
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Health in the villages and in the squad
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Mentally preparing for our goodbyes
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God to keep moving in Guatemala, He’s doing some pretty crazy things and our prayers will continue to encourage the believers here
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Health and safety for my family at home
