“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9
I was reminded of this when I realized it was time for me to step down from leading a small group.
Let me back it up a bit. I was a leader of a girls college age small group since November 2017. It was one of the scariest steps of Faith I have ever taken. I enjoyed my group and cried and done life with these girls. That was until November 2018, the attendance in my small group was getting worse and worse week by week. This frustrated me.
“God,” I asked “why is this happening? Is it something I’m doing wrong or need to be doing better at?” I stayed quiet for awhile and listened.
God said. “I want you to myself to pour into you.” I was confused
“God you have all of me, I don’t understand…”
He didn’t reply after that or maybe I wasn’t listening.
So during the Holidays I recuperated and spent time with God, the stress and Frustration of being a leader started to dim. It was nice just to be STILL and let him hold me and remind me who I was. It did hurt my pride when I realized it was time to step down, I felt like a failure and a disappointment, but in Jeremiah 8:4 Jeremiah, says this to the people of Judah: This is what the Lord says: You know if a man falls down, he gets up again.”
My season of being a leader is done for now. My mentor reminded me that this is not a step back but rather a fork in the road, also preparing to go to India would hinder my ability to give all my efforts to a group right now. That it’s time to make new relationships for me to be poured into. God has his hand on me and I’m not Sad I found a small group of great girls to walk beside me.
Thank you God for taking me where I need to be. Even when I can’t see the road ahead.
