To be honest, my heart has been feeling so hungry to know what it looks like to lean completely on the Lord, and not be overwhelmed by the feeling that I have to do things from my own strength. I have been wrestling with a lot of emotions, and being reminded over and over again that I am not made to be independent and to lean on my own strength. Growing up as an only child and going through some really difficult times, I learned to figure things out on my own most of my life. I fought through a lot of painful emotions that I felt like I was facing by myself, but little did I know that the Lord was present with me the whole time. He brought so much healing to me in discipleship school, but I definitely feel the Lord restoring my heart on a deeper level through the process of raising funds, while turning this mindset into one of total dependence on Him. I know this is just the beginning of a new season I am in, stepping into this wild adventure. I am reminded that we serve a really big God, that we get to be His children. Sometimes, as His children, He asks us to do really brave things and step out into things that are uncomfortable, yet so worth it. I am learning to do this not only in just saying “Yes,” to the World Race, but letting Him lead me in that “yes,” every day. I stumble along the way, and am far from perfect at it. But His grace is good and His perspective is so much more beautiful than my own understanding. I know that He is a good Father and does not make broken promises.
I want to share a story with you about when I was in Kenya last Spring. My team and I got to go visit the Masai tribe who live in a remote village in little huts made from their hands. Their simple lives with no video games or social media to distract them from their connection to one another left me awestruck. We were told a little history about their tribe, and how there used to be a witch doctor who lived on their land, and many people were dealing with sickness. A preacher came to their village and the witch doctor fled. Many of them had given their lives to the Lord, and when we went onto their land we got to worship Jesus and dance with them. It was hot and sweaty in that little building, and many of them did not understand English. As we worshiped many of the Masai women broke out into tears and fell into our arms. Love has no language barriers. He touched these women who were dancing in their beautiful handmade jewelry and singing in their language and brought healing to them, some of them were physically healed as well. Sometimes we get so caught up in our own perspective and put limitations on the Lord. An experience like this one reminds me how big He is and how He shows up even if we don’t understand what He is doing. This is just a glimpse of the what the Lord has been doing in the first month of saying “yes” to the World Race. Your continued prayers would mean so much!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” Proverbs 3:5-6 NLT
“Trust in the Lord completely, and do not rely on your own opinions. With all your heart rely on him to guide you, and he will lead you in every decision you make. Become intimate with him in whatever you do, and he will lead you wherever you go.” Proverbs 3:5-6 TPT
