you know when you get kicked in the stomach, or you run into something somehow and all of a sudden your short of breath, and its hard to catch it.
its like you completely stopped breathing for a good minute of your life.
thats what I feel like in this moment.
I am overwhelmed,sad,stressed, and my brain is doing multiple circles, and I have found myself out of breath.
I am frustrated with Jesus. I am frustrated with my life. I am frustrated with what I am walking through, I am out of breath. I feel like I have been kicked in the gut.
But I am frustrated with myself the most.
I mess up, thing after thing.
I have tried to walk through all of it on my own, without Jesus.
How dare I think I can do that.
Because now.. I am out of breath.
I have felt the happiest I have been in a while the last month.
But I am still out of breath.
I try to fill the void of my emotions and feelings and all the things I am struggling with, with materialistic things, or with things of this world.
I have tried to satisfy my needs with the comforting words of everyone except Jesus.
I am out of breath.
I am not satisfied
I will never be satisfied until I realize that Jesus is the breath in my lungs.
That I will continuously find myself being kicked in the stomach and being short of breath when I try to do everything on my own.
I am hurting. I am struggling. I am filled with so many emotions right now.
and I have the sweetest comforter, that I won’t even allow to comfort me.
I don’t know about you, but I am tired of being out of breath.
I am tired of getting kicked in the stomach by the enemy.
I am tired of feeling tired.
I am not useless, or too far gone.
I am not alone.
and I will not sit here allowing the enemy to make me feel ashamed.
Jesus is good guys.
He loves us so well.
He literally has called us to bring the hurt, the good, the ugly, and all the bad to his feet.
He tells me to be unashamed.
He tells me to not feel the hurt, but the joy of him.
He tells me to point my eyes to what he is doing, instead of what the enemy is trying to do.
It really is, so much better his way.
He wants to give me the breath.
He wants to help me breathe.
He wants to be there and he wants to comfort me.
But it is on me to call on him, because he is right there waiting for me.
Stop getting kicked in the stomach by the one who is here to kill and destroy.
But receive breath and receive blessings from the one who created the universe.
I can’t do it alone.
Nothing is possible without him.
Follow Jesus. Let him be in control. Let him comfort. Walk through life with HIM.
I am feeling like soon I will be able to breathe again, that I will not feel so out of breath.
that Jesus is going to grow me, and move a breath of peace over my life.
you can have that too.
he’s waiting on you.
he is waiting to give you the gift of freedom, and the gift of fresh breath. a gift of no worries, but full trust in confiding in him.
