Blogging has never been something I had seen myself doing. Maybe after this journey I will find a passion to blog like others or maybe I won’t. I just know that I have put off blogging because I am scared of the unknown. I don’t know whether I am going to say too much or not say enough. I hope that makes sense, it did in my head anyway. I just want to be Christ like in all that I do. No matter how big or small the action may be. This is my first blog post and I kept thinking of what to say and how to say it.
I had a vivid dream last night and I won’t go into much detail but it was about someone who is really close to me and they told me boldly that I shouldn’t dim who I am. I have always heard that but didn’t believe it. Sometimes you have to hear things more than once before you BELIEVE it. I remember her poking me in the chest saying, you are amazing, just the way you are. She was adamant about it and I could sense the emotion around those words when she would say it.
I am not perfect. What I realized is I am going to be amazing whether people understand my story or not, whether people like me or not. I am very hard on myself and I feel like my testimony is just hideous. When in God’s eye I am a masterpiece and my testimony is for his Glory. The light that shines through me isn’t meant to be hidden. That light is meant to be shared with the world along with my testimony. How am I to tell people of the Gospel without explaining where I have come from?
I don’t have much more than that today. Just wanted to let you all in on what goes on in my mind and heart.
