Being in Thailand has came to an end. Ministry ended last week, I am now in Malaysia and I don’t feel as emotional as I thought leaving Thailand. I have grown so close with the women at my ministry. I have laughed, played, fished, and worked with them. Even their kids, I would play with them and tickle them like they were my own siblings. I will admit that I did tear up when I went to hug one of the women because she started crying when I approached her but after we left and driving away I couldn’t feel anything. It was confusing to me for a while but I understood why I felt so content leaving and moving on to another country.
I have moved so many times during my life and left so many close friends. And many of them I have never talked to after I left. I believe, and know that God has purposefully placed my in a military family so that I would get used to leaving people I have grown super close to. I will say that this time is a little different because when I leave people in the states there could be a chance that I would see them again in the states. Here in Thailand there is a very slim chance I would see any of the women again and it kinda hurts.
Knowing that God has a plan for me individually is so comforting. But the hard thing is accepting that fact and knowing that you have to put complete utter trust in Him and know that even if it hurts or doesn’t hurt that He has your back and that if there is any chance I will see the women or anyone I grow close to that it is in Him will alone, not mine. That leads into something that has been mentioned multiple times here within my team. Hearing the voice of God. I say that this leads into hearing the voice of God because if there is a chance that I could see the women of Wildflower in the future then I will have to listen to God so that I know that that is what He wants for me. Not only seeing the women but in an everyday life scenario. I am learning between the difference from my own thoughts and hearing God’s voice. It’s hard but in my own opinion, you have to have a lot of faith to understand what His voice sounds like.
I know that this is a short blog but I hope that it will give someone that reads this perspective on what God’s plan for people looks like.
Update on fundraising: I have $4,136 left to raise and the next deadline is coming up in January, which is when I need to be all the way fully funded!! My goal is to be fully funded before that! So am praying for some type of miracle and that God can work through someone that is feeling led to donate.
