If you haven’t already heard, we did have to come home from Nicaragua due to the corona virus. I’ve only been home for 5 days and still trying to process through everything because all this still doesn’t feel real. I was extremely sad to leave my new family that I’ve spent the last 7 months with. Also sad that we didn’t get to spend 2 more months in Nicaragua with the people & kids that I was already falling in love with. I was angry, I was confused, I was upset, I was excited, I was every single emotion that you could possibly think of. I do not understand Gods plan right now, but thats okay because we weren’t meant to understand His every move. Even though being home is hard I’m learning to trust. Trust that his plans are bigger than mine. He makes all things into good, even if it’s not for our good, it’s for His & thats what our world needs more of.
I went from being with people 24/7 day and night to being on lockdown in my house. You can’t get close to people; when I’m used to everyone hugging on me all day (even though they all know I dont like physical touch). I forgot that everyone doesn’t want to talk to you. It’s crazy to me that more people would try to talk to us even though we didn’t speak the same language than here in America where people barely even say hello. Going to the grocery store was culture shock in of itself. Even thought half of the shelves were empty, I still stood there in shock and was overwhelmed by all the options of milk there were. I took my first hot shower, I went on a run ALONE, I got to wear all the clothes that I wish I brought with me, I can control what I eat, but still all the things I was so excited for didn’t make me that excited anymore. I would give all that up just to be back with my squad in Nicaragua. This is what the Lord and I wrestle with. I know His plans are good but being in this super weird culture shock without being able to go see the people that are experiencing the same thing doesn’t feel good. But thank goodness our feelings don’t control us because I can speak on behalf of all of us that we would not be sane if they did. Being home is interesting but God is working. I know He is and our mission doesn’t stop here.
I’ve come back to a really different America that I left 7 months ago. There’s lots of fear & for the first time people are not busy. Since when have (Americans) been forced to sit still and not to have to be somewhere every hour. There’s no denying that Satan is moving but God is moving 10 times faster. Yes, we had to come home early but 7 is Gods number of completion- He knew all along it wouldn’t be 9 months. We were gone the exact amount of time The Lord had for us. Its not just me & my squad family that was sent home, it’s missionary’s all over the world. How beautiful is it that God is bringing all these people on fire for Jesus to America, the place that eyes are finally, FINALLY being opened.
Americans especially think that they don’t need Jesus because we have everything at our finger tips and never need anyone to rely on. As a whole we are too stubborn, prideful and selfish. Let’s tear that down and put someone else in charge of (our) life instead. This life isn’t even ours. You were made by God, so why do we act like this life is ours when it isn’t at all? God can take anything and everything we have away in the blink of an eye. All this stuff we have on earth isn’t ours. Clothes, MONEY, house, none of it is truly ours. Its Gods. But now that the world is going crazy we do need someone to rely on. We need to put our hope in someone or something. Let’s put it in God.
The only thing I’ve changed is my location; this is no where near the end but the beginning of SO much revival. Step up those that call yourself a christian but don’t do anything about it. We definitely don’t need anymore lukewarm Christians in America (there’s no time like now to start living for the one who died for you) rest in the love that He has already given you & SPREAD IT. Stand firm those that your faith is strong bc your not alone in this chaos, lets pack heaven UP. & those of you that dont know Jesus’ love or have questions text me I’d love nothing more! (303) 570 8895
The race is never really over. Life is ministry, for me and every single Christian out there. There’s no age limit on spreading the kingdom. I dont care if your 10 or 100 you have the power to spread the gospel. Just because we are on lockdown does not mean your on a break from being a Christian. We still have the calling on our lives to “make disciples of all nations”. For one you can PRAY, pray for our leaders, pray for our country, pray that everyone in America would accept Christ, pray for your brother or sister that doesn’t follow Jesus anymore, pray for your atheist neighbor, pray for your mom and dad that they would soften their hearts towards the gospel. The prayer list is literally endless. If you love evangelizing, dont stop on COVID19’s account, go to the grocery stores (keep your 6 feet) go around your neighborhood, call up your cousin. There are endless amounts of ministry that you can be doing while people are more receptive to the gospel than they have ever been. Dont get lazy in your faith right now. The world needs Jesus now more than ever and we are His vessels so lets keep this wildfire going.
Luv,
K.C.
