Goodbyezzz

We are about to have to say goodbye to the people we’ve been w this past month in south east Asia. And I’ve made maybe one of my best friends here. The people here will be so so hard to say goodbye to maybe even harder than saying goodbye to my new friends in Swaziland. Goodbyes have never been very hard for me & I never really understood the people that like to sneak away with out saying goodbye until now. Maybe I’ve just never had anyone that made saying goodbye so hard. Because more than anything I wish I didn’t have to say goodbye and I could just sneak away. All the other goodbyes we had to say in Swaziland or when my team leader left I always tried to get out of them and I would dread every minute leading up to it. It always feels like were just leaving people but it’s actually a blessing that we got the privilege to meet such amazing people that made saying goodbye so hard. Every time I have to leave my family (extended) I get so sad because I think family are made to stay close to each other and I always wrestle with the Lord about that. The same thing is happening right now and I just feel Him saying that in this world families are separated & meeting people that you know you will never see again in this lifetime is hard but that just makes it that much more special to see them in heaven for eternity.  At home saying goodbye to my friends and family was hard too but that is the cost of following Jesus. If you put Him first sometimes you have to leave the people you love. But if I just stayed in the same, confortable place my whole life then His kingdom wouldn’t be spreading. And I also wouldn’t be obeying Him. Because I know what the Lord has called me to that is not to stay in the familiar but to go and bring more people home to Him. Then we can make heaven crowded since it is our true home.