It is easy. It is easy to be just a Christian. To read your Bible, attend Church and Bible study every week, and to still chase after your own vision for your life.
Everything I had was “good”. I was good with my money. A good walk with the Lord. A good Job. A good living situation with Godly roommates. A good relationship with a woman that I love so much. This was everything that I wanted though. I was a good vision and direction that I was walking in, but it was not God’s vision or direction that he wanted me to be walking in.
It was a radical shift from my direction to Gods. One filled with loss, sacrifice, tears, and heartbreak. Yet during this time still I am constantly reminded that Jesus is so so good. Not the good that I had for my life before the shift. A goodness that resonates deep in the soul. A goodness that still an uneasy mind, that provides a peace where no peace should be found. A goodness that makes you see your circumstances as preparation for the amazing adventure that is life in Jesus Christ.
I am unsure of what the whole plan is that Jesus has for me. I want to know the end goal. I want to know the the path the will get me to the end. I want to know what to bring with me on the path. I want this path under my control. Luke 1:45 “And blessed is she who believed that there would be fulfillment of what was spoken to her by the Lord.” It is not my path, it is Gods. It is not under my control, It is under Gods control.
It is hard for me to release control over my life. It is daily prayer, a daily step of faith of releasing control. Over this past month it has been the only way I can even wake up in the morning. Your will be done God, your will and not my own. This posture has lead to incredible growth not in just my own life but others around me. He has not only blessed me but others around me because of my faithfulness. Yet it is a daily step every day.
