I am exactly four days away from having 2 packed bags and leaving my home, my family, my friends, and everything I’ve grown accustomed to. All just to go share the name of Jesus to people who have probably never heard it before. What better way to spend my summer right?
I shared with my church everything I knew about what we were doing and where we going while in Thailand and Cambodia. I told them about my love for missions. How much passion I have for helping people. I’ve told countless people how excited I am for this life-changing opportunity that God presented me with. I’ve witnessed many people pray for me because of this trip. I’ve sold shirts having “The Power of YES!” written onto them. I’ve made a fundraising board to help out which was successful in ways I couldn’t imagine. I have also raised all the funds necessary to get to these two countries. Despite the need of packing my bags, it seems like I am all set to go, right?
Lol. No. Negative. Wrong. Yall’s boy is freaking out!!!!
So many questions have been running through my mind lately. Why me? What could I do in Thailand and Cambodia that could change someone’s life? What do I have to offer? Was this really meant to be for me? Did I make a mistake with this?
Y’all. . .my nerves are going through the roof!!!! I guess this should be pretty normal, right? I mean, I would be scared if I WASN’T nervous. Now, it’s not so much the distance of Thailand and Cambodia. They are pretty much on the opposite side of the world, you can’t get much farther than that, but that’s not what’s bothering me. It’s not the fact I’m spending two months with people I’ve never met before. I can make friends pretty easily and I’ve done something like this before. It being a mission trip doesn’t scare me at all because I’ve done four mission trips prior to this.
If I’m honest, the only thing making me nervous right now is the length of this trip. Two months may not seem like a long time to some people, but it could feel long when you’re away from everything and everyone you know. The longest time I’ve been away from home is three weeks, so two months is a HUGE leap from that.
Despite all this, the nerves of the two month long time period isn’t keeping me from doing God’s will. I learned a long time ago that if we are going to do the most for God, we are going to have to get out of our comfort zones. For me, getting out of my bubble was going halfway across the world for two months. For others, it could be inviting your neighbor for dinner to talk about life. It’s never easy and it never will be easy, but it’s always simple to say yes to things.
Everything starts with a yes. Whether it be saying yes to a university or job offer, saying yes to dating or marrying that special person in your life, saying yes to getting a taco at two o’clock in the daggum morning! EVERYTHING begins with a simple little yes. The ‘yes’ may be little, but it can lead you to big and great things.
So now I have to ask for prayers. Pray for me please. I cannot and will not let these nerves affect my time in Thailand and Cambodia. I most CERTAINLY cannot let it affect my ministering to the people of these countries. Pray for my team as well because I know they are freaking out about this trip as well. Pray for strength. Courage. Encouragement. Wisdom. Opportunities. And anything else you can think of. Trust me, we could all use it.
Thank you to those who partnered with and supported me throughout my fundraising process. It would mean a lot if you would continue to partner and support me through this spiritual process too. God wants nothing but the best from me while I’m in Thailand and Cambodia, and I plan to give more than I think I can handle. I love you all very much and thank you once more. I’m sure if you’re reading this, you have had at least one big impact on my life that led me to making a two month long decision. So thank you. And I love you all abundantly!!!
