Have you ever asked God to wreck you? I did & let me tell you…. He listens.
Day two of training camp in GA and I am learning SO much about the gospel, but still something is missing. This brings a lot of unrest to me. Still though, I trudge on and soak in as much information as I can in the sessions. So much that I feel like a little kid- a sponge. The knowledge that I gain is irreplaceable though, as I feel that I have grown so much within 24 hours. Day three comes like a wave over me. A wave of panic, wonder & freedom. I feel a sense of panic because I thought I was completely mature in my walk with Jesus. Spoiler alert: you NEVER stop learning! Throughout the entirety of your life! I also thought- wait for it….that I had a check list of do’s and do not’s as a Christian. An actual check list of do this and you are good- do this and you are not. Everyone has their own opinion of this and mine – that I know in my heart to be true- is that we are loved either way. We are blessed with grace upon grace because we are loved that much. So here comes the wonder and freedom!! You do not have a check list to meet daily- weekly- yearly. Drop the pressure, friends! I am the worst to put the weight of the world on my shoulders. Jesus has paid it ALL so that we do not have to be perfect-we don’t have to be everything for everyone without fail. We will make mistakes but our debts are already paid. Our calling is to be intimate with Jesus and partner with him in loving and being loved. The root of living like Jesus is to love others like you know He would. If we build our lives around love and intimacy with the Lord our walks will look a whole lot different and feel much sweeter.
