“I WILL call upon your name”
On this 4/9 the Lord reminded me that there is light in even the darkest of storms.
“(From 4/9/20) Hey God, you’re pretty cool! Thank you for the blessings you’ve given me today. There was a pretty intense rainstorm today that I didn’t take much care in. There’s nowhere to go and so sitting in a warm house watching movies all day seemed like a pretty good way to fight a rainy day. Then, I see this bright light shining through the blinds and right onto my face. At first I ignore it and shift my position to continue my movie in peace, but you did not want that, and shined even brighter. I then decided to listen to you. I grabbed my Bible, journal, pen, raincoat, and some worship music, and made my way outside. The rain had ceased so I sat on top of the raincoat in the front yard, reading what you were trying to tell me. You gave me Nehemiah 9:30-31, and reminded me of your great love for me. I haven’t felt you since being sent home due to Covid-19 and now I do! You shined onto my face and reminded me to sit in your presence. You’re showing me that there is light in even the darkest of storms. Covid-19 is just a storm. You have not abandoned us for you are a gracious and merciful God. You have chosen me and blessed me and I am so thankful to be your child. Thank you Lord for reminding me that you don’t punish us, you simply let us fight our own battles and let us see that we cannot live without you. Thank you for my team, and for showing me that we don’t have to be together to help each other. We dance in the rain to feel your presence. We take walks near the ocean to feel your presence. We sit in a church to feel your presence. We create our own “church” to feel your presence. We worship you to feel your presence. Lord, I thank you for reminding me of the ways you are forever present in my life. And thank you for my P31 sisters and for the way your light shines through each of them.”
4/21/20
Today, there was a sudden hailstorm.
It was so loud and the wind was strong.
Most people would chose to stay inside in this moment.
I chose to grab some boots and just run.
Without my glasses or my phone, I was free.
I ran blindly into the arms of the Father because He called me.
I went outside and began dancing and spinning and cheering and jumping and running.
I couldn’t contain my smiles or my laughter.
I went on the swing and jumped off of it over and over again.
I climbed up the climbing wall onto the tree house and looked out onto the yard, the house, and the woods behind.
I slid down the side without a care of the water on it.
I ran around with the dogs playing fetch.
I splashed around in the puddles and jumped in the mud.
I went into the front yard and just sat.
I listened.
I took off my boots and walked around the yard barefoot.
Feeling the grass.
I raised my arms and felt the wind and rain.
I lifted my face toward the sky and let the rain wash over me.
I had no thoughts.
I just let the Lord fill me with the Present.
I keep thinking about the future, when the virus will be over.
I keep thinking about the past, before the virus.
But I have stopped thinking about the present.
Yes this virus is happening, but it’s bringing good.
The Lord said that all the creations he made in the 6 days were good.
The Earth, His creation, is healing.
Living in the present.
Living in the Lord’s presence.
Forgetting stereotypes.
Forgetting “Normal”
It’s time to create your own normal.
It’s time to live in the present and live to the fullest.
It’s time to listen to the Lord.
It’s time to unpack the things you’ve put on the shelf for later.
What better time than now?
We have so much time, let’s put that to use!
It’s time to make time for the Lord.
It’s time.
After being in the rain, I got cold and went inside with a smile on my face.
Even being in the house I am still present.
I can still see the rain on my arms.
I can still feel the dampness in my hair.
I can still feel my clothes sticking to my skin.
The Lord told me this on 4/9, and he said it again;
There is light in even the darkest of storms.
God you have never failed, and you won’t stop now.
