Trying to form words with “how I’m doing” is actually kinda hard cause honestly, I don’t know. I was brought back to the states for a reason, I don’t know what the reason is but it’s making me start to wonder, what if I was always dreaming about being a missionary overseas but the plan God has for me is to help those from my home city of Philadelphia, the streets are filled with homeless and like in Colombia they have the street called “the bronx” where drugs tend to be legal and I’m meant to just love on those there and share the gospel, help get them on their feet and just remind that lifes worth living. I’ve been through a really dark time in my life, one that I really don’t want to see others go through. I lost sight with who I was and who I wanted to be, I put out a fake Erika that I wanted my friends to see, someone that wasn’t actually me, and I’m learning that others loved that fake version of me and didn’t want to get to know the real me and give me a chance to prove that I’m better than who I was and I alls I want to do is just love on people the way Jesus came and loved. Of course I’m not perfect and I have my flaws, I want to live like him, but I’m also human so I’m going to make mistakes like everyone else does. Jesus came and loved those who betrayed him and crucified him till the moment he took his last breath on the cross, and then forgave them as he rose again three days later. I want to be able to forgive those who’ve hurt me in the past. It’s weird timed being back home and it being basically nothing like it was when I left, I pray and hope as a culture this is a learning experience on how to slow down and just enjoy life and not worry about what’s going to happen tomorrow or even next week, that we start to live in the now. I’m also guilty of this, something I constantly remember asking growing up at the dinner table is “what’s for dinner tomorrow?” now that may be a simple as easy question as most people plan out dinners for the whole week and not day by day as most families go shopping weekly. But it’s the perfect example on how we can’t focus on the now and we have to live at least a day ahead of the now. Something I learned in other cultures is that they slow down, they’ll give up their day just to sit there and talk to you. I want to challenge you as my subscribers to just sit down and so something you didn’t plan, something spontaneous and not worry about the outcome and see where it gets you!
